A Life Plan Without You. (8 page)

“After Christmas was interesting, I have to say that was when,
I really noticed you and this sexy backside, though I didn’t know
it belonged to you at the time, it was on a girl playing hockey,
especially cute and noticeable because of the get up she came out
in, all that padding and the face mask.

She took her mask off after a game and I was amazed that it
was you, you were shop girl, dancing girl! That arguably became a
deserved perk of the job, seeing you and this bum!

Now hopefully I get the whole package, you, the looks, those
legs, this bum and cold wet interesting boobs and yep that sounded
crude I know, but hell baby you are too hard to resist.” His hand
was now on that bum and his thumb was hooked on my
waistband.

“Are you copping another feel back there, Stalker
Sam?”

“No, just keeping my hands warm, by the way you’re very good
at keeping the ball out too.” I wanted to say something witty in
reply to that little, double entendre.

“There’s no ball passed my goal, yet.” He got my best carry on
stare. His eyebrows rose. Yes, I was untouched and I wonder if he
knew that’s what I meant?

“Don’t freak, on that one either, Jimmy had football practice
and it was on the same field. Just to explain, I was watching him
play football, honestly I was.” He laughed and jumped back as I
went to push him away.

“So, you have seen Karen too she plays as well.” He actually
frowned, I had a smug moment he didn’t like Miss
Perfect?

“Does she? It wasn’t her I was interested in.” Oh lord that
smile as he looked at me, I melted. “I’d promised Mum I would watch
out for him. Please keep in mind she thought there was fighting
involved. Even though I didn’t see any fighting, he was still
coming home with dirty clothes. He was watching you and your mates
I actually, have seen you and your friends an awful lot, walking
home from your busy day studying; it was on one of these stakeouts
that I first saw you doing the dance. I still hadn’t put the pieces
together, not until he climbed the tree and I watched him, to see
who he was watching.

That day came a month later, at the end of February-ish, shit
the weeks all seemed to meld into each other. You and your mates
had all come and gone their separate ways and Jimmy had given me
the slip, I was too busy watching you. Then about three weeks
later, after spotting him up that tree again, you came out carrying
a massive basket thing and he jumped down.” I’m shocked, yet
again.

“It was my cookery basket and that was in March. I’d had my
practice for an exam and I’d gone back to get my stuff, he’d eaten
my exam food that day to, the cheeky sod.” I started to
shiver.

“Are you cold, Mi cielo?” He hugged me tighter, loving these
hugs.

“No please, carry on Sam.” I’m listening to him, waiting for
him to get to the why me part.

“He jumped down after you’d left the building. He watched you
and he followed you, he was watching you all the time and walking
in the park, whilst you walked along the top path. Did you really
not have a clue?”

“No I didn’t Sam. I thought he might like me, but I didn’t
like him like that. He’s just Jimmy who was my friend at school and
my partner in ‘cooking for idiots,’ a very apt for James, the
course and the title, he’s a firkin idiot, it’s a scheme they have
at college, we cooks teach the ones who want to cook more than
beans on toast, for themselves when we go to uni next year, though
James has been my cooking partner for years, he didn’t need to be
on it, he was taught by me and he is already a perfect good basic
cook, being I’m sooo good at what I do.” I laughed as Sam’s arms
cuddled me closer and his eye brow rose, he sighed.

“Really,
in everything you do baby?”

“
I’m good at what I do, yes really Sam… Back to James… He did
sort of worry me sometimes, by just staring at me all the time, he
even did it all through school, but he was just nice Jimmy, who was
my friend. Explains why now, shit you two, why didn’t you just ask
me out, sheisk, stalking’s kind of weird Sam.” A kiss and hug made
it better.

“Well, I may have done it sooner had I realised your kisses
were this nice.” He leaned in and wow the kiss was… Wow, I’m seeing
stars now. “He hasn’t done it since that day, if that’s any
help?”

“Not really, but how do you know he’s stopped, has he stopped?
God he has stopped hasn’t he?”

“He’s fallen out of a lot of trees watching you, Michelle, but
that was his last one, I promise.” Yet more gentle kisses, each one
better than the last. I felt so close to him. Can there be such
thing as love at first sight, Sam seems to think so, and well I’m
in lust with him after that first kiss? I certainly felt so
connected to this man by my side.

“Anyhow back to my tale, theses kisses are side-tracking my
tale, I caught up with him, I was angry with him following you.
Especially now I’d fallen for his Michelle, I didn’t realise until
that minute you were the same girl. So I asked what he was doing,
he said he’d been playing football, and had fallen over. Was that
after you climbed that tree? I asked him, he went white and
stammered, that’s my Michelle. I oh-ed and realised I’d fallen for
his Michelle, and as I watched him watching you, I got jealous, I
knew who you were, thanks to Madam Cyn, I just didn’t know you were
the same Michelle he loved and was watching, I thought it was the
blonde Michelle! I flipped, gave him a speech about it being
creepy, and I advised him to stay away or say something to you, I
gave him some time to do it too, all be it I kept a bloody eye on
him making a move on you!

I frog marched him home asking what encouragement you’d given
him? He said none at all you just thought he was a friend and you
liked someone else. I was a little relieved you hadn’t encouraged
him, I was a bit jealous if truth be told, you liked someone else
and I hadn’t a clue who! I didn’t want to hurt my brother, but I’d
had my mind made up for me two weeks ago, when all this rush stuff
came to ahead and I knew he would ask you but I would ask you first
and yes, I chickened out again, I didn’t want you to say
no.

I’d fallen for you and far deeper than Jimmy, I’d threatened
my own brother if he didn’t leave you alone. I guess he knows why I
did it now.” He looked nervously at me. “This is going to sound
really creepier than the other stuff but please let me finish?” I
nodded. “So, to make sure I’d told him I would continue to watch
him. So best he went the quicker way home in future, he hasn’t
followed you since that day, but that day I became the stalker, I’d
already fallen for you.” I smiled.

“So you started watching me instead of him, then?” He looked
worried.

“Yes, just me then but, if truth be told I have seen you and
watched you for months, bloody hell I sound bad, but I’m not I
swear, it wasn’t like that Michelle, I had to make sure he wasn’t
still following you and to make sure he knew I was still watching
him. I had to say, I was a little interested in finding out what
our fascination with you was, why I had the strongest feelings
ever, for a girl I had never spoken to and only watched from afar
for so long.

I fell in love with the notion of being like you, carefree and
happy, I wanted you in my life to help me change, and stupid as it
sounds you being in my life has changed it and for the better, but
actually having you here I can’t believe it, and your kisses are
worth all the freezing and wet days I’ve had to watch my idiot
brother fawn over you. Get me I was the older Idiot brother fawning
over you too.” He said that laughing as I punched his side and he
continued laughing as he held my hand.

“Continue please I want to get to the interesting bit.” He
frowned. “Oh, please do carry on it seems, I’m about to choose the
wrong brother.” His face lit up, his eyes almost sparkling as he
let out a deep and long sigh.

“So you are going to pick me then?” I’d already decided yes
seven wonderful weeks ago, without the kisses, let him suffer a
while longer two more minutes isn’t going to hurt him.

“Explain why me? Now that you have, I think explained the very
simple question that started this entire conversation off… How did
you know where l lived?” He blushed. “So, you stopped tailing me
when?”

“Erg… Well… I haven’t… Not… Well, really I… I don’t follow you
everywhere and not every day, just on my way back from uni I watch
you, if I’m lucky you’re playing hockey. Without spooking you, I
was and I am hooked and for the love of Mike, I didn’t know why? I
still don’t properly it’s not as if we’ve spoken or anything. There
was and there is, just something about you… Your just fun to watch
and be around, sorry near...” He laughed nervously and hugged me
tighter.

“I’ve been watching you in dance class too, which I started by
the way, after watching you dance down the alley, I started classes
hoping I could perhaps use this dancing lark as a way to get to
know you, I guess that worked?” I nodded! “I waited for some clue,
to see if you could be interested in me, you know when I changed
shoes, before class watching you? I sort of hoped you would just
talk to me, but the smiles and the sneaky peeks from the back
stairs had me convinced you liked me a little bit, you did watch me
a lot, didn’t you? Talking of which, why did you run off crying
last week? I was coming to see if you were alright, but Lee picked
you up and danced and all seemed right with you?”

“You saw me crying? I thought I was so ninja like in my
stalking you, you it seems do it better than me Sam! Oh lord
really, you want to know why?”

“Really I
do!”

“If you must know, I’d just seen you and Lana dance together
and wished it was me you were dancing with like that, I wished they
were my eyes you were looking into. Shit Sam talking’s a two way
thing and I really thought you were with Leggy!

I was however a tad delusional; yes I really did think I could
perhaps get you to notice me using
my
wittiness and my stunning repartee! I lived in high hopes that you
would then hopefully want to be with me and I could win you away
from her, but really I didn’t think I stood a chance because she is
stunning and way more worldly than me.

I was
convinced that you and she were… Err… Shit at it and you and her
were getting down to it, and that was before I saw you two dance
the Argentinian Tango and boy watching you both nearly have sex on
the dance floor, put an end to my stupid fantasies and I ran
upstairs heartbroken and well I was going to talk to you tonight
I’d decided I was giving you one chance to talk to me too and then
moving on if nothing happened. So I had decided to stun you with a
simple hello, I guess falling at your feet worked?

Yes, I noticed you stop grinning, and now you know how long I
have been lusting after you Sam, and now I’ve told you how I feel,
so feel free to laugh at how wrong I was! You could have walked up
to me seven weeks ago and I would have said yes…! Who’d have
thought it, that I did win you over with my wit, humour, charm and
simply looking like a mong learning a dance
? I’m glad you found a way in, I think you can say your plan
worked…” Lots of grinning done on his part, so I was wrong he was
building up courage, but why he doesn’t strike me as the shy type
of a guy? We’ll have to wait and see.

“Really you thought Lana and I were doing the deed? Oh hell
no, I’m not her type Michelle. She likes them tattooed and hairy!
She lives with a biker and has been with him since she was
fourteen, the nick-names she gets are so unjust, yes she likes to
flirt and be friendly, it just so happens too that most of her
friends are male, who all fall for her and it’s never
reciprocated.

Men do want her you’re right and girls are intimidated by her
good looks, as you said earlier! By the way you lied when I asked
did you like her? Michelle Welles you were almost certainly did not
like her and were jealous of her, but you’ve no need to be jealous
of her and me at all! Poor Lana can’t even get the children she
teaches to like her!

They really hate her, but then she’s not overly fond of them
either, she’d had enough a couple of weeks ago in the class before
mine; she flipped her lid and asked Lee to take over her class of
nippers! He was booked, so she suggested you, she said you were a
better teacher than Ellie in her opinion; you were good and seemed
to like kids! She likes you a lot she says your sweet and you love
kids and furry animals and someday hope to strive for world peace,
once I told her I liked you she went into selling you like you were
the next Miss World, funnily enough Lee didn’t take any selling at
all, he was already giving you the class on Friday, that’s why I
knew you’d be there early, that’s in case you were wondering what I
was doing there when you got in, your face was a picture!” I was
stunned!

“She’s
not at all like I thought she was, gheeze I have her to thank for
my class and here’s me thinking she was a loose woman, mean and up
her own posh rich arse and in love with you!” He laughed as he
talked about his old friend.

“Her massive kind and friendly heart, belongs to her beloved
Jonnie, who she calls Sugar Daddy, because he’s just a month older
than her, they were both in my class at school! She should change
his name or stop saying the crap she does, because people really
think she has a real life one. I suppose he is rich they both are
they own the big bike shop on Stockton Industrial estate she is an
accountant and shit hot at figures, she doesn’t teach at the school
either she helps her disabled sister in class! Jonnie, he’s a cool
guy and he taught me to ride a bike!