Crushed (6 page)

Ryan
texted me about 2 hours after I left

R:
Are you serious about what you said before you left?

E:
Why?

R:
I’m just wondering how you go from letting one guy eat you out and finger
fucking you, to asking about another guy 24 hours later

E:
are you implying that I’m a whore Ryan?

R:
No, but I just find it weird

E:
It’s not weird Ryan, I want to be fucked, but I want a relationship so I am on
the lookout. Don’t worry I won’t come bothering you for either, your safe from
me ;)

I
came home, showered got dressed as cute as I felt appropriate for a back yard
BBQ and went into the kitchen to help Lacey prepare dessert.

“So
Ryan is really pissed off about Alex coming over tonight” I say to her “why do
you think that is?”

She
looks at me and laughs “you heard him screeching at me on the phone did you?”

“God
he sounded like a fucking maniac” I laughed

She
stops smiling “I think Ryan has a hell of a lot more feelings for you than he
is willing to admit. The fact that he went down on you yesterday and
still
offered
you a job says something, I just don’t know what”.

I
looked down at what she was doing, thinking about what she was telling me

“Lacey,
I asked him out like a fucking kid. I asked him to date me to see where we
could go with things and his response was ‘I don’t date Emmalyn, ever’ so I
think it’s pretty safe to say that Mr. movie star doesn’t want anything to do
with me”

Lacey
looked at me and frowned “He told Jason he wants you”

“Of
course he does, he wants to fuck me and call it good. But you and I both know I
am not that kind of girl, I need to feel wanted, and I can’t just have sex with
him I would need to be in some kind of relationship. I would need to feel loved
I can’t be someone’s fuck buddy. That’s just not who I am”

She
looked at me for several minutes “Emmy, I honestly have been watching him watch
you for the last 4 months. I haven’t wanted to say anything to you, because I
wanted to see what he would do with it but even Jason has noticed and that man
is oblivious to everything.”

“Ryan
wants you, I think he might even be falling for you. He watches every single
move you make. Whenever you speak he watches your face. When you stand up to
leave the room for something, his body stiffens like you being away from him
makes him uncomfortable”

“But”
she goes on “I also know that he’s starting to go down an unknown path, and he
could lash out at any moment. He’s an amazing guy, you have seen that for
yourself but he’s broken too. It doesn’t matter how many good people he has in
his life, he remembers the words of that one bad person and it fucks him up. He
might fall for you, he might turn out and love you like you have been wanting
to be loved your whole life since... Daddy, but he might turn out and shatter
your heart to a million pieces and Emma I am in a really sticky spot between
wanting to see him love and wanting to keep your heart safe. I don’t know who
will heal first from either occasion.”

I
felt confused. I knew what she was saying. Ryan could have feelings for me,
well clearly he did. But at the same time he could choose to act on those and
rip me to pieces if something went wrong. I had to decide what to do.

“Lacey,
I don’t think we need to worry about that just yet. Let’s just hang out tonight
and see how everything goes”. I pick up the cream pie she just made and stick
it in the fridge

As
soon as I closed the door, I heard the doorbell ring.

“I’ll
get it” I shout out

As
soon as I open the door, I see a really pretty fake blonde haired Barbie
standing at the door with her arms wrapped around Ryan’s waist

He
looks at me and smiles “hey Emmalyn, this is my
date
” putting emphasis
on the word date “Kelly, this is Lacey’s little sister and my new assistant
Emmalyn”

His
date?

I
looked at him, his stupid fucking smile is plastered on his face

I
turn on my fake smile and reach my hand out to hers “Oh my God, it’s so great
to meet you Lacey and Jason are out back if you want to join them, I’m just
going to run and grab something out of my room”

I
step out of the doorway as they pass by and Ryan purposely rubs against me as
he passes. I don’t bother to look up at him

I
head towards my room, but take a quick peak towards the back yard doors and see
Ryan has bimbo Kelly pushed up against the fridge, sucking on her neck, she
turns her head to the left and he looks up at me and smiles, reaching his hand
between her legs under her dress.

I
shake my head and walk to my room and grab my phone to text Lacey

E:
So about those feelings you were talking about earlier, I think you might be
wrong for the first time, Ryan and his girlfriend are headed your way

L:
Are you fcking –Oh shit

E:
Yeah... So let’s not worry about that anymore okay?

L:
Are you alright E?

E:
Sure, I mean I finally let a guy feel me up and I get dropped like last week’s
mail hours later, I am totally cool. Don’t worry about it

Before
I had a chance to read her response, the doorbell rang

I
headed to the front door and when I opened it I was stunned

This
must be Alex.

He
was just as built as Ryan was, but his arms were covered in tattoo’s he had on
a Red Sox hat backwards and he was messing with his tongue ring between his
front teeth. He had espresso colored eyes, and a flawless face

He
was hot.

“You
must be Alex, I’m Emmalyn, Lacey’s sister”

He
walked through the doors and reached over and gave me a hug

Holy
shit he smelled amazing

“It’s
so great to meet you, Jason wasn’t kidding you really are hot”

I
laughed

“So
I hear Ryan’s here as well?” He asked

“Yeah,
he and bimbo Barbie are already outback” I motioned towards the back

“You
mean he brought a girl to his brother’s house” he asked confused

“Um
yeah, is that bad?” I asked him

“No,
I mean I have never seen him bring a date to Lacey and Jason’s... Ever. He
normally doesn’t do dates. Who knows with him, I can’t keep up with his
changing ways” he laughs lightly

“Me
either, and I have only known him a few months” I say

He
looks at me, “well then, shall we join the rest of them”? He reaches out his
hand for me to take and we walk out back

As
soon as we get out back, I notice that Lacey and Jason are standing by the
grill deep in conversation. Barbie and Ken are sitting at the table, she’s on
his lap sucking his face. I mean seriously, if he doesn’t have a red ring
around his mouth –the kind you would get as a kid when you sucked too hard on
your cup- I would be shocked

Alex
doesn’t let go of my hand as we walk further out, I can hear Ryan growl as we
make our presence known, but I choose not to look, for fear that it might burn
my eyes if its bimbo doing what I assume she does best

Jason
turns around as we approach them and yells “A-man what the fuck took you so
long”? They pound fists Alex lets go of my hands and hugs Lacey.

She’s
just started to show, she has been buying the most adorable maternity shirts
that are pretty form fitting around a budding baby bump, she’s the cutest damn
pregnant woman I’ve ever seen

“Hi
mommy” he says to Lacey with a laugh

She
giggles, turning pink and rubbing her belly

She
leans towards me and smiles “Ryan is fucking pissed”

“Oh
well, he can take it out on his date”

 Alex
leaned in too “what are we whispering about?” he smiled

He
really was a good looking guy, I don’t know why Lacey didn’t talk about him
before last night other than in passing with Ryan

“Ryan
being a douche” I tell him

“What
else is new?” he snorts

“He
doesn’t matter, he just wants shit for free and that’s not how life works” I
said, grabbing his hand and leading him towards the table

Ryan
was glaring at me from his seat, Kelly was leaning over whispering something
into his ear

“Hey
bro” Alex said as soon as we were within ear shot of Ryan

“Hey”
Ryan replied, anger evident in his voice

I
thought these guys were best friends. I guess considering Ryan has been at our
house for months on end, and this is the first time I am actually meeting Alex,
I might have been wrong.

Lacey
and Jason joined us later, we laughed, and Jason told really horrible jokes.
Alex was funny too, like insanely funny but Ryan didn’t really laugh. After a
while, I stopped paying attention to him and his brooding behavior and focused
on Alex, Lacey and Jason. I don’t understand why he came if he wasn’t
interested in everyone else, but I was tired of his shit

Yes
he was my boss, but this wasn’t working hours and I wasn’t going to let him
make me feel bad

When
everyone was done eating, Alex and I agreed to clean up together so everyone
else went inside

He
washed, I dried, Lacey put all the food away before she came in and told
everyone that “baby sickness” was kicking her ass and she totally needed to get
some sleep. She gave me a kiss goodnight, and told me to put a movie on and
hang out with Alex for a bit.

I
looked behind her and noticed that Ryan was watching our exchange with
annoyance

Alex
and I sat down on one couch, and Ryan and Kelly sat on the other. We picked out
some drama suspense romance movie.

Alex
sat pretty close to me, his arm draped behind me on the couch, one leg crossed
in an alpha male sort of way. I felt him playing with a few locks of my hair,
rubbing them back and forth between his fingers. I looked at him and grinned.

We
started watching the movie again, I glanced over at Ryan who was watching me
his head leaned back against the couch. I looked over at Kelly, who had her
hands under a blanket that was on Ryan’s lap. At that moment the screen lit up
bright and I noticed that the blanket was moving up and down.

Seriously,
he was getting a fucking hand job about 4 feet from us?

I
leaned over and whispered in Alex’s ear

“I
am pretty sure they are a step away from having sex”

Alex
glanced over there and I looked back too, Ryan had his head back, eyes closed.
Clearly he was enjoying himself

I
tried to ignore them, Alex moved slightly closer to me putting his hand on my
thigh

He
leaned in and whispered “is it totally weird that I just met you and I totally
want to do everything they are doing?” He laughed lightly in my ear

I
looked at him, to see if he was being serious or making fun of me. He was being
totally serious

I
leaned in and kissed him.

He
grabbed my head and started kissing me, hard.

He
was an alpha male through and through, from the way he walked, talked and now
the way he was kissing me. He wanted control and he took it

I
didn’t mind. I forgot all about the other people in the room and crawled up
onto his lap.

He
continued to kiss me, stopping every so often to layer kisses down my neck, so
gentle it almost gave me chills.

He
was hard as a rock too, his erection pressing through the zipper of his jeans
to the point where I knew it had to be somewhat painful for him

I
reached between us and rubbed my hands over the bulge gently, looking at Alex
as I did it. He threw his head back but quickly sat up straight grabbing my
face and kissing me.

That’s
when I heard the scream

Not
a painful scream, a sex scream

I
looked over to see that Ryan had Kelly bent over the coffee table that was
about 2 feet from where Alex and I were, Our feet had just been resting on it
moments before

There
was a split condom wrapper thrown onto the couch right beside me

Disgusting
fucking pig

I
looked up at his face and noticed that nothing in his face would be what you
expecting a man fucking a hot girl to have. He looked pained, he looked pissed
and he was looking right at me.

That
was my last straw.

I
grabbed Alex by the hand and stood up, he followed.

I
looked back at Ryan who had stopped pumping in and out of Kelly to watch us
walk away

“Goodnight
guys, please lock the door when you leave”