Everlasting Sin (9 page)

He stopped biting and looked at me in concern. “Am I hurting you?”

“No,” I whispered and shook my head.

I used that opportunity to explore his chest with my hands. I ran my fingernails along his nipples and smiled when I heard him gasp. I was about to lean forward and suck on his nipples when he pushed me flat on my back.

“Has a guy ever gone down on you before?” He looked down at me with passion filled eyes, and I shook my head. “Good.” He grinned and kissed me hard on the lips before kissing down my body.

I lay flat on my back wondering what he was going to do. I’d heard about men going down on women, but I didn’t really understand why. What was great about that? I felt embarrassed that he was going to be putting his face there, in my private spot.

“Relax, Riley.” His voice was hoarse as he reached my stomach. I felt his fingers trying to spread my legs apart, but I kept them closed. “It’s okay, Riley. Open your legs,” he whispered and slipped a finger between my thighs.

“I’m scared,” I whispered.

“Don’t be.” His voice sounded reassuring, so I slowly unclenched my legs. He took the opportunity to spread them wide, and I moaned loudly as I felt his fingers gently touching my private spot. “How does this feel?” he whispered as he ran his fingers up and down, making me wetter and wetter.

“It feels good,” I whispered and closed my eyes as my body was filled with unfamiliar feelings. I felt like a woman. I felt like I finally understood the secret of love and sex. I now understood why so many people made a big deal of sex.

“Good,” he whispered. His finger started rubbing me gently, and I felt an even more intense feeling building up in me. I tried to close my legs to stop the feeling from spreading because I thought I was going to pee.

“Stop.” I whispered, terrified that I was going to pee on his finger.

“What’s wrong?” he groaned and looked down at me. “Are you okay?”

“I just feel like I’m going to...” I whispered, not wanting to finish the sentence.

“Oh,” he laughed. “Are you scared because you’re wet?”

I nodded and he shook his head. “Don’t be embarrassed, Riley. It’s natural. It’s beautiful. Just like you.”

“Are you sure?” I groaned as I felt his finger enter me slightly. “What are you doing?”

“I’m just seeing how tight you are,” he groaned. “I don’t want to hurt you.”

“Hurt me?”

“When I enter you for the first time.” He smiled gently. “I’m using my finger to see how wet you are and how tight you are. When I enter you, it’s going to hurt a little bit.”

“Oh.” I trembled slightly.

“Don’t worry. I’ll make it as pain free as possible. Part of that is my making you as wet as possible.”

“Oh, okay.”

“Now relax.” He groaned and pushed me back down.

I felt his face between my legs, and I lay there still as a rock in anticipation. I never could have predicted how good it was going to feel. His tongue felt warm against me, and he licked me up and down as if he were a puppy lapping up milk. I felt my legs clenching on his face as my body trembled and shook. I was not prepared for the rush I felt when his tongue entered me. I’d thought his finger had felt good, but his tongue was something else altogether. It was warm and hard and soft all at the same time.

Hudson seemed to be enjoying it as well, grunting as he licked me and teased me. I was sad when he withdrew his tongue from me, but then he started sucking on a sweet spot and I knew I couldn’t stop what was about to happen.

“Oh, Hudson!” I screamed, reaching down and grabbing his head as I felt myself having my first orgasm. “Ooooh!” I screamed as I felt the heaviness down low erupting onto his face.

“Oh, Riley, you taste so sweet,” he groaned and held my thighs as he licked me. I moaned as he kissed back up my legs and then kissed me on the lips. “I can’t hold back any longer,” he muttered and reached over to the bag, removing a box. I watched as he pulled out a packet and ripped it open.

“Can I?” I whispered as he was about to place the condom on the tip of his penis.

“Okay.” He guided my hand. I rolled the rubber onto his hard shaft, and he groaned as my fingers ran down him. “Are you trying to make me come?” He groaned and pushed me back down. “I’m going to go slow,” he whispered. “I’m going to go slow so it doesn’t hurt.”

I nodded and lay back, opening my legs wide.

He entered me slowly and sweetly. I cried out when it hurt slightly, and he looked at me in concern. I nodded at him to keep going, and he pushed into me farther and harder until he was all the way inside of me. My fingers found their way to his back, and I wrapped my legs around his waist. Hudson increased his movements and his pace, and I felt as if my body were becoming one with his as he filled me with pleasure. Hudson groaned as he increased his pace even more. He opened his eyes and stared down into mine as he continued making love to me. I felt his body still for a moment and then he moved faster and faster before collapsing down on me.

“I love you, Riley,” he whispered as he rolled off of me and pulled me into his arms. “I hope I didn’t hurt you.”

“You didn’t.” I smiled at him and snuggled into him.

“Did you come?” he asked, and he stroked my breast.

“I don’t know.” I shook my head. “I didn’t come like before.”

“Oh no.” He looked upset. “I’m sorry.”

“It’s okay. It still felt good.”

“I want it to feel more than good.” He grinned and kissed me. “We’ll do it again so I can try again.”

“I won’t say no to that.” I smiled up at him and laughed as I felt his fingers between my legs again. “And I love you too.”

“I never want this night to end.” He stroked my hair and gazed into my eyes. “I never want to forget this night of magic.”

“Me either,” I whispered back at him. “Me either.”

I saw a light shining in the bag and realized that Hudson’s phone had just received a text message. I saw Clara’s name and my heart thudded in guilt.

“Promise me that we will always both treasure this moment,” Hudson continued, and I diverted my attention to him.

“I will never forget.” I pulled him towards me and kissed him hard, wrapping my arms and legs around him. I could hear his heart beating next to mine, and I allowed myself to melt into the moment.

***

That night had been the only night we’d ever made love. It had been the last night we’d ever spent with each other. I could still remember it like it was yesterday. I still held it close to me. I had hoped that the next time I saw Hudson we could pretend like nothing had ever happened. We could pretend like everything that had happened was a dream. I’d hoped we could go back to being friends. I knew that I could never hope for us to talk about love again. Not after our betrayal. What we had done was wrong and we had both paid for it. I just hadn’t realized I would be paying for it for the rest of my life.

Chapter 9

Hudson

Present Day

I walked into the gym feeling tense. It had been a couple of days since I had seen Riley and she hadn’t come back, but I wasn’t hopeful that I could avoid her forever. Not now that she was writing an article about the championships. I knew that I was probably going to see her again, but I didn’t want to. Well, that was a lie. I did want to, but I didn’t want to want to.

I pulled out my ringing phone as I walked to the weights. “Hey, what’s up?”

“How’s it going?” Luke sounded eager as he gushed down the phone. “Nick says you’re awesome, which I already knew of course.”

“It’s fine. What do you want?”

“Is that any way to speak to your best friend?”

I sighed. “I’m busy.”

“Well sorry, Mr. Trump.” He paused. “I saw Clara’s mom today at the grocery store.”

“And?”

“She was using food stamps.”

“Oh?”

“She had to put some food back because she didn’t have enough.” He continued. “I felt bad for her, but I only had twenty dollars. Nothing I could do, you know?”

“Yeah.” I bit my lower lip. “I guess she still hasn’t found a job.”

“I guess she planned on Clara always looking after her.”

“Yeah.” I closed my eyes and leaned against the wall. “That was the plan.”

“Anyways, I thought I would let you know.”

“Yeah.”

“Just in case you were thinking of backing out,” he continued. “You know, Clara would—”

“I gotta go, Luke.” I hung up the phone angrily and quickly walked to the locker room.

I slowly opened the door, wishing that I could wake up one day and be out of this nightmare. I paused as I opened the door and heard the other guys talking.

“She has a tight body,” I heard Justin say. “I’d love to bend her over and...”

“I’d take her in the shower.” Channing sounded gruff. “I’d fuck her so hard that she’d be begging me to stop.”

“She’d never fuck you.” Justin laughed. “She’s all over me.”

“She was staring at my cock yesterday like she wanted to go down on me right then and there.”

“You wish, Channing.” A couple of the guys started laughing. I could feel my heart racing as I listened to the guys.

“No, Riley wishes.” He laughed. “She’s begging for me to take her.”

I felt something in me explode as I heard him say her name. I rushed forward and grabbed hold of his collar, and pushing him into the locker.

“What the fuck are you saying about Riley?” I snarled in his face.

“Nothing that ain’t true.” Channing looked at me with hate in his eyes.

I tightened my grip. “What were you saying?”

“I said she wants to suck on my cock,” he said slowly while licking his lips.

“Shut the fuck up, you prick.” I couldn’t stop myself, and I felt my fist hitting his face.

“Or what, pussy?”

“Or I will fuck you up.”

I attempted to punch him again, but he blocked my fist and tried to knee me in the crotch. I pushed him back into the lockers again and brought my right hook up to his face again. He was too slow this time and took a blow to his eye. He looked at me angrily, and I felt him push me back. I tripped over the bench, and he took advantage of the fact that I was down to kick me in the ribs. He got two kicks in before I grabbed his leg and pulled him down to join me. I grabbed his face and smashed it into the ground as he kneed me in the crotch.

I didn’t feel any pain as he beat me up. All I could think about was how he’d disrespected Riley. I felt sick to my stomach that he could say such things about her and even sicker thinking about her with another man—especially him. I would kill him before I would let him touch her.

His words played around in my mind and I grew angrier. I started hitting him harder and then I felt his teeth sinking into my arm hard.

“Guys, stop!” Justin stood above us, and I could see the panic in his eyes. “Please stop! Come on, Channing. Leave Batman alone.”

“He started it,” Channing grunted out while attempting to hit me in the face. I turned over and pushed him onto his back before sitting on him and holding him down. “It’s not my fault that Riley wants me to fuck her brains out.”

“Shut up, you asshole!” I didn’t hesitate before I punched him in the mouth.

“Pussy!” He spat blood out at me and I held his arms down.

“What did you say?” I growled at him. My eyes burned into his, and he looked up at me in hate.

“I said, it’s not my—” He began and I made to hit him again when we were interrupted.

“Stop.” Riley ran into the locker room and stared at me for a few seconds before looking away. “Please stop.”

I watched as one of the other guys followed her into the other room and sighed. I wondered what he had told her. I stared down at Channing and wondered if I could chance hitting him one last time.

“Please, Hudson, stop.” Riley’s voice was soft, and I looked at her.

I wasn’t prepared for the feeling of want and desperation that filled me as I stared at her. I was about to get up when Channing whispered up at me.

“You may have won this one, but I’ll still have her screaming out my name as I fuck her.” He grinned at me as he licked his lips, and I found my fist crashing down into his face again.

“Hudson, no!” she screamed and ran over to me. I could see tears in her eyes. “Please, stop!”

“You need to leave, Riley.” I pushed her away from me. My arms were on fire where she touched me. All of a sudden, all I could think about was the night on the beach—the night I took her virginity. I could see her face as she purred up at me in pleasure. I could feel her supple breasts in my hand. I looked at her angrily as the feelings came back. “Get out of here!” I shouted at her and watched as she flinched.

“I’m not leaving.” She shook her head and stared at me. “You can’t make me.”

“You guys know each other?” Channing looked back and forth at us and then smiled an evil little smile. “That makes sense of course. It makes perfect sense.”

“I don’t know him.” Riley looked at me for a second and shook her head. I felt empty at her words.

“Riley, I’m...” I stopped and looked away from her. I didn’t know how to say the words.

I wanted to tell her that I was sorry, but that would mean I’d have to acknowledge everything that had happened. I didn’t want to even think about it. I was scared that if I went back down that road, old feelings would resurface. Feelings that I’d kept under wraps for the last four years. Riley was someone who couldn’t be in my life anymore. Not now that I had other responsibilities. I owed it to Clara.

“So, Riley, we’re all going to a camping trip next weekend because Nick wants us to bond. I was hoping you could come. What do you think?” Channing’s voice was smooth as he invited Riley on the trip, and I held my breath, hoping she would say no. She had to say no.

“That sounds good. Thank you.” Her voice was sweet and innocent, and I saw her quickly glance at me to see my reaction.

I ignored her stare and looked at Channing. He was pushing his tongue in and out, and I grabbed Riley by the arm and pulled her out of the room with me.

“What are you doing?” she cried out in surprise, but I ignored her and pulled her into the parking lot with me.