Authors: Carmen Jenner
Finding North (30 page)
Book one in Carmen Jenner’s bestselling Taint Series.
My vision is partly obstructed by Ali, but the sight of her head bobbing as she takes him in her mouth is all I need to know what’s going on. Levi meets my gaze across the limo. There’s gloating there—that much is obvious—but there’s also understanding. When you spend as much time together as we do, you come to know your band mates pretty well, and for all his talk, he’s not as big of a douche as he claims to be. He may not ever sleep with the same woman more than once—with the exception of Ali, I guess—but I know he’s not immune to the loneliness our lifestyle creates. It’s strange how you can be adored by millions and yet completely alone all at the same time.
He slides his hand into her hair and closes his eyes, throwing his head back against the seat.
“Fuck, fuck, fuck, fuck,” he whispers, and then he gathers her hair to the side and shifts her body so that my view is completely unobstructed. I watch as she works her hands up his shaft in time with her mouth. He doesn’t attempt to fuck the back of her throat and make her choke on it, the way we both had that first night we fucked her. Instead, his touch is gentle.
Reverent.
It makes me crazy, and hot as fucking hell. I shift uncomfortably, adjusting my cock within my jeans. I don’t make a move towards them, though I want to. I want to bury myself inside her and mark her as mine, but at this point the lines are so fucking blurred it doesn’t matter whom she belongs to. Him. Me. The both of us, or neither one.
I lean forward, taking a glass from the shelf and a crystal decanter filled with amber liquor, and I pour myself a drink. Then I slide back into the leather to watch.
“Play with yourself, Red,” Levi whispers.
“No.”
“Do it,” I say, and she turns around to glare at me. I can’t tell if she’s disappointed I’m not joining in, or if she forgot I was even here.
“I don’t want—”
“Why are you suddenly so embarrassed?” I say sharply, swigging back more of the scotch than I should.
“I’m not embarrassed. I’d actually rather that you joined in.”
“I’m watching,” I say, eyeing her coolly over my glass. She scowls at me a moment and then she kneels up, steadying herself with one hand on Levi’s thigh. She wriggles her skirt up over her hips and bends over. Everything is on display as she takes him in her mouth again. I close my eyes, not wanting to watch her on her knees in front of him. Her head is bent low, her full fuck-me lips wrapped around Levi’s cock. I feel as if I’m on a ride that’s spinning out of control, and I can’t find a way off. I can’t make it stop. And I so badly want it to stop.
“When are you gonna let me fuck her, Coop?” he asks. I don’t know why he’s asking, though, the question I want to know is: why hasn’t he already? He’s done everything else. Hell, he even did that before I did, so why does he need my permission?
“That’s up to her,” I say, and a slow grin spreads across Levi’s face. I swallow back the rest of my drink. It burns all the way down, and then it sits in my stomach like battery acid in the bottom of a rusted-out old car. I lean over and pour another drink, swallowing down half of it in one go.
“Red?” Levi asks, but she’s staring at me with her teeth buried in her bottom lip, as if she’s waiting for my approval.
“What does it matter at this point?” I ask her, because even though I don’t want him inside her, it’s still a valid question. Her eyes blaze with anger. She’s not happy with my response; she’s pissed.
She turns her attention back to Levi and nods, and I squeeze my eyes shut. I can’t keep them closed for long though, especially not when he strips her bare and pulls her into his lap, bending her over backwards. Levi lifts her, supporting her weight and grasping her hips tightly. His mouth is on her cunt, eating her out as she stares at me.
Blood has rushed to her head, and her hair spreads out on the floor of the limo like a crown of wildfire. She’s a fucking siren, twisting and arching both into and away from his touch. I want to write a score over the expanse of her creamy white skin. I can smell her and it’s driving me insane not to have her in my mouth. It’s making me crazy to watch him have her, and yet I won’t do anything about it, because what the hell can I do?
This wasn’t supposed to happen, and I wasn’t supposed to give her my heart. I promised myself I wouldn’t lose my head, but now my word is shot to shit. I’m screwed either way, and I only have myself to blame for it.
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Carmen Jenner is a thirty-something,
USA TODAY
and international bestselling author of the Sugartown, Savage Saints, and Taint series.
Her dark romance, KICK (Savage Saints MC #1), won Best Dark Romance Read in the Reader’s Choice Awards at RWDU 2015.
A tattoo enthusiast, hardcore MAC addict and zombie fangirl, Carmen lives on the sunny north coast of New South Wales, Australia, where she spends her time indoors wrangling her two wildling children, a dog named Pikelet, and her very own man-child.
A romantic at heart, Carmen strives to give her characters the HEA they deserve, but not before ruining their lives completely first … because what’s a happily ever after without a little torture?
Stay up to date with Carmen’s latest works at:
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Holy hell was this book a rollercoaster ride for me. Yeesh! As I stumble my way off the platform and back to reality feeling like I just stepped off the set of the Exorcist, I have a few lovely people to thank who helped bring this book to life.
To my darling non-husband Ben, you are my EVERYTHING! Read my damn books already!
Ava Rose and Ari Danger, I love you more than the sun, and more than the stars, and more than the moon, and more than mars, and WAY MORE THAN … CHICKENS!
To my gorgeous family both blood and extended, I LOVE YOU! Mum, thanks for the babysitting.
To my beautiful beta readers Kristine from Glass Paper Ink Bookblog and Ali from Black Heart Reviews, you girls rock my face off with your support. You two help me be a better writer. Don’t ever leave me, because I will find you.
Lauren McKellar (#McStellar), thanks for McStellarising my words, again, for fitting me in, again, and working around our ridiculous schedules, again. Thanks for the encouragement, the sprints, the critiquing, and for always making me grin like a madwoman during the editing process.
Ben from Be Designs, how cool is it that you get two mentions in these acknowledgements? Thank you for putting up with my special brand of torture, for giving Will and North such a beautiful cover, and for rocking the face of the internet with your phenomenal teasers.
Heartfelt thanks to Emily from E. M. Tippetts Book Designs. You and your team are superstars. Here’s to many more beautiful interiors together.
To my Sugar Junkies, Gah! Girls! I can’t even with the love you give me! Thanks for following me into wildly erotic and angsty world of M/M, and for rocking my face off with your excitement and extreme pimping skills.
Kylie from Give Me Books, I ADORE YOU! Thank you for taking on my Cover Reveals, Release Day Parties and Blitz’s. You go above and beyond, lady. Working with you and your team is a dream.
To the amazing authors of 101, I adore all of you. Thanks for welcoming me into the fold and for sharing all of your experiences so that we all may benefit. You guys are what the indie community is about.
And finally a huge, heartfelt THANK YOU full of hot naked men to the readers and bloggers who follow, support, pimp, review, talk me up, share in the excitement of a new release, who come out to signings, and who keep coming back for more. No matter how much I torture you with my wickedly wenchy ways. Without you I wouldn’t get to do what I love.
Finding North
Copyright © 2016 Carmen Jenner
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Published:
Carmen Jenner Feb 7
th
2016
Editing:
Lauren McKellar
Cover Design:
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Be Designs
Formatting:
E.M. Tippetts Book Designs
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