Mr. Murder (35 page)

Surprised to discover that she, too, was looking forward with pleasure to the continuation of the poem, Paige sat on the foot of Emily’s bed.

She wondered what it was about storytelling that made people want it almost as much as food and water, even more so in bad times than good. Movies had never drawn more patrons than during the Great Depression. Book sales often improved in a recession. The need went beyond a mere desire for entertainment and distraction from one’s troubles. It was more profound and mysterious than that.

When a hush had fallen on the room and the moment seemed just right, Marty began to read. Because Charlotte and Emily had insisted he start at the beginning, he recited the verses they had already heard on Saturday and Sunday nights, arriving at that moment when Santa’s evil twin stood at the kitchen door of the Stillwater house, intent upon breaking inside.

“Oh, gross,” Charlotte said.

Emily grinned. “Hocked a greenie.”

“What kind of pie was it?” Charlotte wondered.

Paige said, “Mincemeat.”

“Yuck. Then I don’t blame him for spitting in it.”

“At the corkboard by the phone and stool, he sees drawings the kids did at school. Emily has painted a kind, smiling face. Charlotte has drawn elephants in space. The villain takes out a red felt-tip pen, taps it, uncaps it, chuckles, and then, on both pictures, scrawls the word ‘Poo!’ He always knows the
worst
things to do.”

“He’s a critic!” Charlotte gasped, making fists of her small hands and punching vigorously at the air above her bed.

“Critics,” Emily said exasperatedly and rolled her eyes the way she had seen her father do a few times.

“My God,” Charlotte said, covering her face with her hands, “we have a critic in our house.”

“You
knew
this was going to be a scary story,” Marty said.

“Ten pounds!” Charlotte’s imagination swept her away. She rose up on her elbows, head off the pillows, and babbled excitedly: “Wow, you’d need a forklift and a dump truck to carry it all away, once it was popped, ’cause it’d be like snowdrifts only popcorn,
mountains
of popcorn. We’d need a vat of caramel and maybe a zillion pounds of pecans just to make it all into popcorn balls. We’d be up to our asses in it.”

“What did you say?” Paige asked.

“I said you’d need a forklift—”

“No, that word you used.”

“What word?”

“Asses,” Paige said patiently.

Charlotte said, “That’s not a bad word.”

“Oh?”

“They say it on TV all the time.”

“Not everything on TV is intelligent and tasteful,” Paige said.

Marty lowered the story notebook. “Hardly anything, in fact.”

To Charlotte, Paige said, “On TV, I’ve seen people driving cars off cliffs, poisoning their fathers to get the family inheritance, fighting with swords, robbing banks—all sorts of things I better not catch
either
of you doing.”

“Especially the father-poisoning thing,” Marty said.

Charlotte said, “Okay, I won’t say ‘ass.’ ”

“Good.”

“What should I say instead? Is ‘butt’ okay?”

“How does ‘bottom’ strike you?” Paige asked.

“I guess I can live with that.”

Trying not to burst out laughing, not daring to glance at Marty, Paige said: “You say ‘bottom’ for a while, and then as you get older you can slowly work your way up to ‘butt,’ and when you’re really mature you can say ‘ass.’ ”

“Fair enough,” Charlotte agreed, settling back on her pillows.

Emily, who had been thoughtful and silent through all of this, changed the subject. “Ten pounds of unpopped corn wouldn’t fit in the microwave.”

“Of course it would,” Marty assured her.

“I don’t think so.”

“I researched this before I started writing,” he said firmly.

Emily’s face was puckered with skepticism.

“You
know
how I research everything,” he insisted.

“Maybe not this time,” she said doubtfully.

Marty said, “Ten pounds.”

“That’s a lot of corn.”

Turning to Charlotte, Marty said, “We have
another
critic in the house.”

“Okay,” Emily said, “go on, read some more.”

Marty raised one eyebrow. “You really want to hear more of this poorly researched, unconvincing claptrap?”

“A little more, anyway,” Emily acknowledged.

With an exaggerated, long-suffering sigh, Marty glanced slyly at Paige, raised the notebook again, and continued to read:

“He won’t get away with this,” Charlotte said.

Emily said, “He might.”

“He won’t.”

“Who’s gonna stop him?”

This development—Charlotte and Emily as the heroines of the story—delighted the girls. They turned their heads to face each other across the gap between beds, and grinned.

Charlotte repeated Emily’s question: “Who’s gonna stop him?”

“We are!” Emily said.

Marty said, “Well . . . maybe.”

“Uh-oh,” Charlotte said.

Emily was hip. “Don’t worry. Daddy’s just trying to keep us in suspense. We’ll stop the old troll, all right.”

“What do you think it is, Mom?” Charlotte asked.

“Probably those dirty kneesocks you misplaced six months ago.”

Emily giggled, and Charlotte said, “I’ll
find
those socks sooner or later.”

“If that’s what’s in the box, then for sure I ain’t opening it,” Emily said.

“I’m
not
opening it,” Paige corrected.

“Nobody’s opening it,” Emily agreed, missing the point. “Phew!”

Charlotte defiantly thrust one small fist into the air and said, “Sisters!”

“Sisters!” Emily said, thrusting her fist into the air as well.

When they discovered that they had reached the stopping point for the night, they insisted Marty read the new verses again, and Paige found that she, too, wanted to hear the lines a second time.

Though he pretended to be tired and needed some coaxing to oblige them, Marty would have been disappointed if he hadn’t been importuned to do another reading.

By the time her father reached the end of the last verse, Emily was only able to murmur sleepily, “Sisters.” Charlotte was already snoring softly.

Marty quietly returned the reading chair to the corner from which he had gotten it. He checked the locks on the door and the windows, then made sure there were no gaps in the drapes through which someone could look into the room from outside.

As Paige tucked the blankets around Emily’s shoulders, then around Charlotte’s, she kissed each of them goodnight. The love she felt for them was so intense, like a weight on her chest, that she could not draw a deep breath.

When she and Marty retired to the adjoining room, taking the guns with them, they didn’t turn off the nightstand lamp, and they left the connecting door wide open. Nevertheless, her daughters seemed dangerously far from her.

By unspoken agreement, she and Marty stretched out side by side on the same queen-size bed. The thought of being separated by even a few feet was intolerable.

One bedside lamp was lit, but he switched it off. Enough light came through the door from the adjoining unit to reveal the larger part of their own room. Shadows attended every corner, but deeper darkness was kept at bay.

They held hands and stared at the ceiling as if their fate could be read in the curiously portentous patterns of light and shadow on the plaster. It wasn’t only the ceiling; during the past few hours, virtually everything Paige looked at seemed to be filled with omens, menacingly significant.

Neither she nor Marty undressed for the night. Although it was difficult to believe they could have been followed without being aware of it, they wanted to be able to move fast.

The rain had stopped a couple of hours ago, but aqueous rhythms still lulled them. The motel was on a bluff above the Pacific, and the cadenced crashing of the surf was, in its metronomic certainty, a soothing and peaceful sound.

“Tell me something,” she said, speaking softly to prevent her voice from carrying into the other room.

He sounded tired. “Whatever the question is, I probably don’t have the answer.”

“What happened over there?”

“Just now? In the other room?”

“Yeah.”

“Magic.”

“I’m serious.”

“So am I,” Marty said. “You can’t analyze the deeper effects that storytelling has on us, can’t figure out the why and how, any more than King Arthur could understand how Merlin could do and know the things he did.”

“We came here shattered, frightened. The kids were so silent, half numb with fear. You and I were snapping at each other—”

“Not snapping.”

“Yes, we were.”

“Okay,” he admitted, “we were, just a little.”

“Which, for us, is a lot. All of us were . . . uneasy with one another. In knots.”

“I don’t think it was that bad.”

She said, “Listen to a family counselor with some experience—it was that bad. Then you tell a story, a lovely nonsense poem but nonsense nonetheless . . . and everyone’s more relaxed. It helps us knit together somehow. We have fun, we laugh. The girls wind down, and before you know it, they’re able to sleep.”

For a while neither of them spoke.

The metrical susurration of the night surf was like the slow and steady beating of a great heart.

When Paige closed her eyes, she imagined she was a little girl again, curled in her mother’s lap as she had so seldom been allowed to do, her head against her mother’s breast, one ear attuned to the woman’s hidden heart, listening intently for some small sound that was not solely biological, a special whisper that she might recognize as the precious sound of love. She’d never heard anything but the
lub-dub
of atrium and ventricle, hollow, mechanical.

Yet she’d been soothed. Perhaps on a deep subconscious level, listening to her mother’s heart, she had recalled her nine months in the womb, during which that same iambic beat had surrounded her twenty-four hours a day. In the womb there is a perfect peace never to be found again; as long as we remain unborn, we know nothing of love and cannot know the misery that arises from being deprived of it.

She was grateful that she had Marty, Charlotte, Emily. But, as long as she lived, moments like this would occur, when something as simple as the surf would remind her of the deep well of sadness and isolation in which she’d dwelt throughout her childhood.

She always strived to ensure that her daughters never for an instant doubted they were loved. Now she was equally determined that the intrusion of this madness and violence into their lives would not steal any fraction of Charlotte’s or Emily’s childhood as her own had been stolen in its entirety. Because her own parents’ estrangement from each other had been exceeded by their estrangement from their only child, Paige had been forced to grow up fast for her own emotional survival; even as a grammar-school girl, she was aware of the cold indifference of the world, and understood that strong self-reliance was imperative if she was to cope with the cruelties life sometimes could inflict. But, damn it, her own daughters were not going to be required to learn such hard lessons overnight. Not at the tender ages of seven and nine. No way. She wanted desperately to shelter them for a few more years from the harsher realities of human existence, and allow them the chance to grow up gradually, happily, without bitterness.