Silenced 2: The Overtaking (Silenced Series) (9 page)

The funeral’s tough. Landon and Donna calm me down enough to go sit back in our seats. The director says a few things about Sarah, which I disagree with because he doesn’t know her.

After he’
s done talking, Donna and Allen get up to speak in front of everyone. They’re the only ones who seem like they truly believed that Sarah was mistake-free and never did anything wrong. After they’re done, Donna calls me up to give my peace and outlook of Sarah’s life. I stand up and walk to the front of the room.

“
Sarah and I were together since the day we were born. We never had a fight though some would say that’s impossible. But it’s true. She’s my best friend. We did everything together. All of our firsts. She was my sister. She’s my best friend, even though I mentioned that already. I will greatly miss her.” I struggle to say.

I
keep thinking back to the dream I had, where we talked.

“
I believe Sarah wasn’t fighting with a pill addiction. I believe she was in pain and was only trying to free herself of that pain. The medication she took didn’t seem to work quickly enough, and she didn’t realize she took too many. I know Sarah. We both have…or had the same fear when it came to drugs. We were scared.” I say as I direct my gaze to Donna.

I truly fe
el Sarah was in my dreams for a reason. She wants everyone to know the truth. Even if they didn’t believe me or even believe the way I found out.

“
It’s going to sound crazy, but Sarah visited me last night in my dream. She told me this. She told me to let her mom and dad know that she loves them. She’s happy, and finally pain free.”

Then, I turn
to Sarah’s body and begin talking to her as if she’s actually there.

“
Sarah, I relayed the message. I do hope this helps you rest in peace. I miss you. You’ll never be forgotten. I love you, sister. May you find happiness, and a world that’s pain free where you are.” I finish as I bend down and kiss her forehead. Then, I walk back to my seat.

Chapter Thirteen

After the viewing,
we go back to the hotel. I can’t be around all of Sarah’s family. I can’t face them, and don’t really want to. The ride back to the hotel is very quiet. No one says anything while listening to me cry.

We pull into the parking lot
, Patrick looks at Casey and motions to our room, and then they get out and shut the door.

“
Amber, I’m sorry you lost your best friend.” Landon begins. “I’m proud you stood up and spoke for Sarah. But, do you really think what you said was accurate?”

I look at him
. “Yes, I do. Landon, she really did come to me in my dream.” I say in a stern voice.

“
I don’t doubt you dreamed about her, but what you said made you look…well…like you lost it. I’m not saying this to upset you. I’m afraid you’re mixing up what’s real, with what’s a fabrication of the imagination.”

I d
on’t say anything. This really makes me mad. He’s accusing me of being foolish, because I told my dream to everyone. What an asshole! I get out of the car and go into our room.

As I’m
lying on my bed, my mind goes back to the viewing and everything I said. Thinking back to Sarah lying in that box, pale and looking like Barbie…I begin to cry. This is when it hits me.

The darkness start
s taking a hold of me. The tears fall, and my heart’s racing. My palms sweat as my hands began shaking. The thoughts hit me that I’d never talk to or see Sarah again. I feel dizzy and nauseated.

I ha
ve to do something. The day of pain I just felt and endured. Landon’s being an asshole. I have to let go. I know I promised Landon I wouldn’t do it anymore. But I can’t do this, I need to release everything.

I st
and up, grab my bag, and go into the bathroom, locking the door behind me. I don’t care that Patrick and Casey are curious and worried about me. I don’t care that Landon’s on his way into the room. I don’t care about anything. I feel like a zombie that the darkness finally grabbed and begins to control.

I d
ig through my bag and find my razor. Yeah, the one Landon thinks he hid from me. I pull up my sleeve, look at my wrist, and take the razor across it. The velvet red blood starts flooding out. It feels so good. I sit down on the floor enjoying the feeling. It feels like the best drug, a cold ice cream on a hot day. To simply put it, it’s wonderful.

Small clips of Sarah flash in front of my eyes
, like I’m watching her again.
Weird!
The knocking on the door pulls me back to the present. That’s when I see it. Blood everywhere. Too much blood. I look down at my wrist. It’s covered, and the blood’s still flowing. It follows down part of my arm, slides down the side of my hand, and is pooling on the floor.

I d
on’t care. It feels to damn good to stop. It’s an amazing high. I feel relaxed, and I love it. While enjoying the sensations, I don’t notice my face beginning to pale up. I don’t hear the knocks and voices on the other side of the door. I don’t hear my friends and their worried questions. Instead, it’s all ecstasy. That’s when I pass out.

****

Oh, this is nice. What the hell am I doing? Where am I? I feel weightless, as if I’m floating. My eyes open. As I look up, I can tell I’m lying down. When my vision finally clears, I see a light and a very clean ceiling.

“
Amber?” I hear Casey’s voice.

I turn
my head toward her. That’s when I realize I'm not at home, at Donna’s, or in the hotel. I’m in the hospital. I look around the room. I hear beeping which is really annoying.

“
Amber... hey... it’s Casey. How are you feeling?” She questions.

I notice
her eyes are red and puffy. She’s crying. I look around and notice everyone is crying. Landon and Patrick sit on a chair not too far from the doorway.

“
What…where…ugh” I can’t seem to talk.

I tr
y to think about the last thing I remember, but my mind is blank. What had happened to me?

“
Mr. Summers?” A strange voice says coming from the door.

I s
ee Landon stand up and walk out into the hallway with what looks to be a doctor or nurse.

I
rub my eyes, and that’s when I become aware of the stinging and aching. Pain radiates at my wrist and goes up my arm.

“
Ooouuccchhhh!” I mumbled.

“
What is it Amber?” Patrick says coming over to my side.

“
Pain...I’m in pain.” I cry as best as I can.

Patrick walk
s to the doorway and grabs Landon’s attention. Landon and the person he’s talking to rush into the room. They come over to me and I notice that Landon was talking to a doctor.

“
Ms. Brown, you’re at the Jacksonville Memorial Hospital. Do you remember anything that happened?” She asks me.

“
Pain...” I manage to say.

“
I’ll give you something for pain. But can you answer a question? You don’t have to speak. Just nod your head for yes, and shake it for no.” The nurse replies.

“
Do you remember what happened?” Landon jumps in.

I s
hake my head. No, I don’t remember. All I know is that I’m in pain, and this doctor better give me something before it drives me crazy.

“
Ok, you should start to feel some relief soon.” The doctor informs me.

“
Your mom and Dave are on their way, I can’t keep this from them anymore. You’re sick, and you need help. I don’t know what else to do.” Landon says looking into my eyes.

“
What happened to me?” I manage to ask in a hushed and crackly voice.

“
You did it again.” Landon reveals.

Huh? What
’s he talking about? What did I do? I start to think about what all I remember. I know I’m in North Carolina. We came down for Sarah’s funeral. I remember flipping out because Sarah’s make up and clothes were wrong. I remember not going to Donnas’ for the dinner and going back to the hotel. Then, I lay down. That’s all I remember.

“
What?” I ask still trying to figure out what he’s talking about.

“
You broke our promise. Amber, we found you on the hotel bathroom, lying in a puddle of your own blood. You slit your wrist.” Landon uttered, with sadness in his eyes.

I
attempt to remember, but can’t. I go to rub my forehead as I’m thinking and notice my wrist is bandaged up. He’s telling the truth.
Oh my Gosh!! What the hell was I thinking?
Now, everyone will know my secret.

I look
over at Casey and Patrick to see if they look any different. I can see both of them are worried. Patrick’s sitting while shaking his right leg and Casey’s biting her nails. That’s when I realize Landon told me he called my mom.

“
You called my mother?” I whisper, making sure I heard him right.

“
Yes, I did. I can’t do this on my own. Amber you need help, and I can’t handle this on my own without them. They should be here within the next hour.” He states.

“
How long have I been out?”

“
We aren’t really sure. It took us a while to get into the bathroom because we had to wait for the manager to come with a key. Once he unlocked the door, we saw you. He instantly starting flipping and ran to the phone. The manager called for help. I tried to get you to wake up but you didn’t.” Landon sputters.

“
What were you thinking? Why didn’t you just talk to us? Amber, you could have killed yourself!” Casey yells as she comes to my side.

“
Cass, I…” I really didn’t know what to say to her.

“
Why didn’t you tell me you had this secret?” Casey asks me.

First of all
it’s my secret; I wanted only me to know. Second of all, Casey hasn’t been the best of friends to me lately, and Landon’s still pissing me off. I don’t know what to think anymore. It seems like the two people that are the closest to me are those who seem to be treating me the worst. My mother’s been treating me better then they have lately.

“
I couldn’t, I didn’t want anyone to know.” I look over at Landon.

“
Amber, I’m done with this. I can’t, and won’t keep your secret any more. This is the second time I’ve almost lost you.” Landon says, shaking his head.

“
Like it would matter to either of you! Casey you turned your back on me, and our friendship hasn’t been the best. Hell, most of the time I can’t even trust you. How was I supposed to know I could actually tell you something that means so much to me, and know you wouldn’t tell anyone?” I say as I look at her and then move my eyes to look at Landon. “And don’t you think you have put me though enough? I needed you so much lately and all you have been doing is treating me like I’m a child or crazy. I thought I knew you and I thought you loved me. Now, I’m not so sure. I need your support, and that’s why I agreed for you to come with me down here. Instead, you act like everything I do is wrong. You act like everything I say is questionable. I hate it.” I whisper as I try to yell.

“
That’s still not an excuse to inflict this type of pain on yourself.” The doctor buts in. “Your parents are here.” She finishes.

That’s when I s
ee my mom and Dave standing in the doorway. Great!

“
Oh, Amber, honey, are you ok?” My mom asks me. She’s crying. Man, I didn’t think I’d see so many people crying in such a short time.

“
I’m all right.” I tell her in a low careless voice.

M
y mother and I have become closer over time, but it makes me sick to see her standing here acting like she really cares that I hurt. I know that when the doctors are gone and my friends aren’t around, she’ll tell me how stupid I am for what I did.

“
Mrs. Brown…Hello...I’m Dr. Morris. I treated your daughter when she was brought in. I’d like to talk with you for a moment. Can you please follow me?” the doctor asks.

“
Sure.” She replies, and walks out of the room.

“
What do you think they’re talking about?” I ask Dave, not sure what’s going to happen now.

“
Probably figuring out what’s the best thing to do for you. None of us can trust you alone. It’s like you have to be babysat all the time. I wouldn’t doubt it if it’s one of the reasons your mother didn’t want you to stay with Landon. Obviously you’re still a child and cannot be trusted,” Dave’s says in a cold and distant voice, “How could you do this to your mother at a time like this? You know she’s in pain because of Sarah. Just like you always do, you have to make yourself the center of attention. Just face it Amber, you’re not the center of attention and the world doesn’t revolve around you.”

“
Get out!
You’re not my father. Therefore, you have no right in this room! This is the last time I’ll say it. Get out!” I scream at him, feeling so much animosity towards him.

There
are his true colors. Landon finally sees it. Now maybe he will believe me.

“
I’m your father, Amber, and you cannot tell me to leave. I’ll stay because I don’t want anything to happen that’ll cause your mother more pain. Unlike you, I care about how she feels and how stress bothers her.” He scolds.

“
I
will
call for security because you have no legal right in this room. I’m also considered an adult no matter what you think. Therefore, I can make my own decisions.” I retort as my mother and the doctor walk back into the room.

My mom
doesn’t look happy. Although, I wouldn’t expect her to be. She just found out my secret, and I never wanted her to find out.

“
How long have you been doing this?” She asks.

“
I’ll answer all your questions as soon as he is out of this room.” I say motioning to Dave.

“
He’s your father and I give him permission to stay.”

“
Then, don’t bother asking me any questions because he’s not my father. He has no legal right to be in here. I won’t talk with him in this room. Doctor, please have that man removed from this room.” I request, motioning towards Dave.

“
Your mother has a say in what happens here, Amber. But it’s my duty to our patients to see they’re most comfortable while they are here. Being calm and relaxed helps the body heal itself. Therefore, I have to take my obligation to my patient, and do what she wishes.” She replies, “Sir, I’m asking you to please wait down the hall in the waiting room.”

I c
an tell he is pissed. It’s like I could actually see the fire and smoke coming from him, like one of those cartoons I used to watch on Saturday afternoons. Once the doctor tells him to leave, he finally listens.

“
Now that he’s not in here, what did you want to know?” I ask my mom.