Torn (3 page)

No one's pure, my love…

What was that? A poem? A nursery rhyme?

A song?

Oh yeah, the lullaby his grandma used to sing. It seemed to come out of nowhere to tickle the back of his head the way her hand used to. The few words and notes came to his mind easily, but the rest refused to form. There were angels in it and some kind of monster that took away bad kids. Bad kids like Cody. Was that why Devin was so lame? Because deep down he was still obeying his grandma? Ha.

The line tumbled about in his mind, repeating. Devin rolled it around his head, trying to imagine it with a backbeat. Then it was gone. He put aside the fractured bit of memory for later use, then tried to figure out just what it was he was going to tell Karston. Best to get it over with fast, if he could.

Sighing, he stepped out into the throbbing sounds of the dance floor. A DJ spun house music while the next band set up. As Devin walked
along, some people he didn't know looked at him admiringly. An older girl, maybe a college girl, smiled at him hungrily.

So this is what it's like to be in the band. Cool.

He smiled back, bemused, detached, until Cheryl grabbed him by the arm and pulled him onto the dance floor.

As he danced with her, smelling the shampoo in her hair that mixed with the smell of her sweat, he cast some nervous glances in the direction of the soon-to-be-former bassist. Karston, of course, was having the best night of his pathetic life. It looked like any girl who couldn't get near Cody because he was flailing too wildly on the dance floor had zeroed in on One Word Ben and Karston. The poor guy looked awake and happy for the first time in his life, ever.

Devin couldn't knock him off his perch, not like that. He'd never have this much attention again. No one at Argus High even spoke to the guy. Even Devin only started talking to him because they were next to each other in Bio, and he felt bad for him. Then he made the stupid mistake of mentioning he wanted to start a band.

He couldn't fire him right now.

He caught a glimpse of Cody at one of the small tables, his hands moving quickly as he spoke to two older kids. They weren't from school, and they definitely weren't in college. Cody was sitting back in his chair, a stupid grin plastered across his face as the other two talked to him. He actually looked nervous. One kid was steady, too calm, like a statue. The other was tall, but there was something wrong with his shoulder. It kept twitching. When the twitchy figure tilted, the image of a razor on the back of his leather jacket came into view.

Cheryl noticed Devin stiffen. “What's the matter?”

The Slits. Cody was talking with two members of the worst street gang in Macy. They dealt drugs, ripped off stores at gunpoint, even got into a little loan-sharking.

Oh. Was
that
where Cody got the money for the new axe?

“Nothing,” Devin said.

Couldn't be. Even Cody wasn't stupid enough to get involved with that crowd.

Was he?

If you want something to be your life, you have to be willing to risk your life for it, right?

Of course he was.

Moonlight flashed over Cody's bleached white hair and ruddy face as he curled up in the passenger seat like some exotic animal. Devin dutifully maneuvered the SUV on the thin road out of town toward the more rural area where Cody lived with his father, stepmother, and five brothers and sisters.

Devin stayed silent, hoping he could remain that way. After about ten minutes, a light rain started falling, misting the black finish on his lawyer-dad's SUV.

Finally, Cody said, “Didn't do it, did you?”

Devin shook his head. “It's a bad move. Where would we get another bassist?”

“Ben. We'll move him over from keyboards.”

“He doesn't play bass.”

“He will. And he'll be better than Karston. He's got all that stuff hardwired from those piano lessons Mommy forced him to take since he was five. Guy's a total robot, but he's our robot.”

“And where are we going to get a bass?”

“Borrow Karston's. He's not going to be using it.”

Devin's voice frog-hopped an octave. “You want me to fire him and ask him to borrow his bass? You psychotic bastard.”

“I'm not a psycho, dude, I'm a sociopath. He'll do it. He'll do it just to be near us.”

Devin shook his head. “I do not believe you. You are a piece of work, Cody. You know his mother's a major bitch on wheels—she's like Mrs. Hannibal Lecter, totally abusive. She screams at him. She hits him. We're all he's got.”

Cody made a face. “Yeah, and my mom was an alcoholic before she slammed into a nice thick pine tree doing sixty on a side street. Boo hoo hoo. It doesn't change the facts. He can't play. You love him so much, get rich and then send him to freaking college, so he can learn a useful trade. We're either serious or this is a game. I'm serious. I'm waiting to find out where you are. So where are you?”

They were driving on a low road surrounded by thick forest. A small car zoomed up behind them and started tailgating. Devin could hear the steady boom-boom of its car speakers mix with the swish of his wipers.

“Damn,” Devin said. The road was slick and he didn't want to speed up, so he pulled to the shoulder and let the car pass. Two girls gave him the finger as they drove by.

Cody laughed. “Big shot rock star!”

Devin had nothing to say to that.

When his laugh faded, Cody leaned his forehead against the window and looked out at the darkness flashing between the tall trees, uncharacteristically contemplative. He let out a deep sigh.

“Okay. I got kicked out of school,” he said. “Permanently. I don't need it. I know where I'm going and it doesn't involve algebra.”

Devin stared at him. Cody and Argus High were mortal enemies since the first time he walked through the front door metal detectors. A dozen possible scenarios for Cody's expulsion flashed in Devin's head.

“No way. Because of the fight you were in today? I heard you hit a teacher, but I figured that
was B. S. Even you're not…,” Devin said. He let his voice trail off as he turned to his passenger.

Cody gave him a look. “I shoved a basketball jock with a big mouth into the soda machine and his lunch went all over the floor. Chunky Meat Stew Special. Same freaking color as the linoleum. Douchebag Skiffler made me help him pick it up. So, okay, I bent down and scooped the slop back onto the tray. I was handing it back to the lame a-hole, all nicey nice, when Skiffler put his hand on my shoulder and squeezed, like I'm supposed to be afraid of his wrinkled ass. And he said, ‘Snap it up, Mr. Dosser, I've got better things to do with my time.'”

Cody paused. The wipers slapped the windshield clean. Then, beaming like he was that lame jock sinking a three-pointer, Cody grinned and clenched his fist. “I slammed that Chunky Meat Stew Special right in Skiffler's chest. ‘Lick it up yourself,' I told him.”

Devin's mouth dropped open.

Cody laughed hysterically, but the crazed pleasure soon disappeared from his face. “Got a call after school. I'm supposed to be all thankful he's not pressing assault charges.”

For Devin, things clicked into place. The new
guitar, the desire to get rid of Karston and get more serious with the band. Torn really was all Cody had.

“What'd your folks say?” Devin asked.

Cody shrugged. “Haven't told them. I erased the machine, but I'll hear about it tonight. They're probably waiting for me, white-knuckling it in the living room.”

A set of lights rode in the rainy gray behind them. At first Devin was afraid it was a second tail-gater, but the lights slowed at a respectful distance and kept pace.

“So this is it,” Cody explained. “You want to get all weepy over Karston, go right ahead, but I can't screw around anymore. You either fire him before the recording session tomorrow, or
I'll
quit.”

“Right.”

“Try me,” Cody said, a little angry. “I'll hitch into the city. I'm good enough to get session work. I'll pull another band together.”

Cody leaned sideways and punched Devin's shoulder. “But I don't want to do that, man. I want it to be Torn. I want it to be us. I just need it to be
now
. ‘Face' is an okay song—that and my vocal got us the gig. You've got something there. But you've
also got Daddy's kick-ass SUV and his giant bank account sending you to any college you want. I need to know where you're at with this and I need to know now.”

So here it was.

Cody's life was on the brink, and he was all set, eager even, to take the plunge. Devin wished he felt the same, but if he put more time into the band, made it more than a hobby, how could he keep up his own schoolwork? Studying was the only thing that got him past half his classes. But he loved music, loved Torn. Wasn't the whole point of dreams to make them real?

The road narrowed. The trees grew taller. Moonlight poked from between the rain clouds, shone through the branches, reflected off the windshield, then vanished again. More time passed.

“How does that fence feel, shoved between your legs like that?” Cody asked. “You gonna answer? I'm not kidding. Karston goes and you tell him.”

“I don't know,” he said. “I just don't know.”

The road curved into a fork. Devin took it a little fast, so he had to slow down to follow the line of the deserted street. As he did, he heard tires screech behind him.

What the hell?

Engine gunning, the car in the rear roared into the left lane, passed him, went fifty yards ahead, and then spun, blocking the road.

Devin's shocked mind seized, but his body managed to hit the brakes. The heavy SUV came to a wavering halt. Devin's body slammed forward from momentum, the hard edges of the seat and shoulder belt pressing into his skin.

The next thing he saw was Cody, ripping off his own belt in a panic, then nearly throwing himself into the back, pulling things from his bag, screaming, “Oh crap, oh crap, oh crap!”

Devin snapped forward, ready to rage at the stupid driver. Through the windshield he saw the doors of what looked like a dark sedan fly open. Into the headlights came the Slits he'd seen at Tunnel Vision, looking mean in leather jackets that glistened in the soft rain.

“So Cody,” Devin said, his voice shaking, “is this where you got the money for the guitar?”

But “Oh crap, oh crap, oh crap” was Cody's only answer as he continued to rummage frantically. The Slits headed toward the SUV. Their legs moved, but it seemed like the rest of their bodies
were motionless, making it look as if they weren't getting closer so much as growing larger.

Devin was staring so intensely, he was only dimly aware of Cody slipping back into the front seat. The feel of something cold and heavy in his lap brought his senses back to the cab. He looked down. A crowbar. Cody had tossed him a crowbar.

“No! No way!” Devin said. “Are you crazy? Are you totally crazy?”

“Take it!” Cody growled. “There's only two of them! We can scare them off!”

Devin pushed the crowbar back at Cody. “No! What happens next time when there's more than two?”

Cody slammed it back into Devin's hands and held it there. “Nick and Jake and their stupid pals are all talk. They're nothing. Nothing. The only reason they get away with this crap is because no one challenges them. They'll back off if we put up a fight, trust me. Follow my lead. They don't carry guns. It's all knives and razors. Crowbar's longer than a knife, right?”

The two figures approached, not even blinking from the rain. Devin briefly wondered which was Jake and which was Nick, then realized he didn't
care. Cody shivered in a weird way, like he was trying to shake any fear out of his face.

He opened the door, hopped out, and cast an angry look back inside at Devin.

“Come on!”

Devin thought seriously about calling the cops, but the Slits could kill both of them in the time it would take a squad car to get here. He wanted to drive off, but Cody was already out of the car. So, gritting his teeth and trying to keep his terrified body in control, Devin stepped out of the SUV and stood on the other side.

Seeing him, the short one (Nick? Jake?) veered and took a step toward Devin, but the other stopped him. His hand sported a big, gaudy ring on a finger that looked more muscular than some arms. He jabbed it at Devin like a knife.

“Stay out of this. It's not your problem unless you want it to be,” the Slit said. “You just stand there and watch.”

When Devin didn't move or speak, the Slit turned to Cody. “We want our money.”

“I told you back at the club, I haven't got it,” Cody said. “I don't know when I will.”

The Slit shook his head. “That's not good.”

“No,” Cody answered. “It's not.”

The two took another step closer. Cody moved his feet apart for better balance. The change in stance only made the Slit with the twitchy shoulder grin. He took one more step. In a totally defensive move, born out of fear, Devin raised the crowbar slightly.

The taller Slit looked at him. “You seem like a good kid. Close your eyes if you don't want to watch. It won't take long. That way you'll still be conscious, so you can drive your friend to the hospital.”

“Put that crowbar through his skull, Devin,” Cody said.

“Aren't you already in enough trouble?” the Slit asked.

“See?” Cody said, not taking his eyes from the Slit. “I told you they're all talk.”

The taller Slit took a step toward Devin. His eyes were calm. Blank. All business. Devin felt his grip on the crowbar weaken, his shoulders slump. He moved his hand to wipe the moist rain from his eyes.

“Come on, Devin!” Cody said. “Gotta get off that fence sometime. Now would be good.”

“Yeah, Devin, what's it going to be? I don't have all night,” the Slit said, grinning.

In a flash, the grin vanished. Something hit him hard from the side, sending the Slit down and out of Devin's field of vision. Devin turned, confused. Cody was down on the Slit, pummeling him, hitting him again and again in the face and the chest, really wailing on him.

The twitchy Slit was stunned by the sudden attack, but recovering. Any second, he'd jump Cody and it'd be two-on-one.

Whatever happened next was up to Devin. But why? How far was friendship supposed to go? If crazy Cody was stupid enough to borrow money from thugs, why should Devin risk his neck?

“Devin! Do
something
!” Cody shouted between blows. The Slit below him tried to block the manic flurry of punches, but Cody was too fast.

The other Slit shifted.

The car door was less than a foot away. Devin could get in quickly, then wait and watch. Like he always did.

“Devin!” Cody bellowed. He turned his head. When he did, the Slit landed a blow to the side of his face. Cody was mean and fast, but no street
fighter and not very heavy. He went sideways. In seconds, the two reversed positions, the Slit on top, ready to get medieval.

Shaking, frightened, Devin tightened his grip and held the crowbar up, hoping he could have it both ways and scare them off without actually doing anything. He took a step, but his foot found something slick on the rain-wet road. His foot flew back and he flew forward.

The shorter Slit raised his arm as the crowbar came down. It hit him in the center of his forearm, with all Devin's falling weight behind it. There was a loud sound, a crack like a thick branch splitting. Devin hit the ground and ate some street. Badly scraped, he managed to stumble back to standing in time to still see the look of surprise on the Slit's face.

A voice in the back of Devin's brain said,
Did I hurt him?

Numbly, he raised the crowbar again. The Slit, arm folded in a funny way, moved back. Devin turned toward the one atop Cody. The cracking sound had turned him around, too, long enough for Cody to pull back and slam him full on in the crotch.

In pain, the Slit moved sideways a bit and snarled. The mask of calm he'd worn previously
vanished, revealing something savage and animal.

Moving like a caffeinated maniac, Cody rolled out and up onto the balls of his feet. The Slit, grabbing his crotch, looked around and saw his partner cradling his arm and moaning. He stumbled back to their car, pulling his friend along. Just before he vanished into the driver's side, he said, “This isn't over.”

With a squeal of tires on the wet asphalt, the small car spun and zoomed off into the darkness.

Devin watched it go, catching his breath a moment. He turned back to Cody, who was laughing, harder and harder, and saying, “That was great! That was amazing! We are Torn!”

Devin looked at him, shocked. How could he be laughing? What could be more stupid?

Then he started laughing himself. He was relieved. Happy, like he'd won something, like maybe, even though it was an accident, even though he hadn't really decided anything, he was now bad enough to be in a rock and roll band.