WC02 - Never Surrender (8 page)

They had reached the threshold of the Parliament building.

"Anyway," Bracken added, 'you've got no other bloody choice but to trust the people. Nobody else trusts you."

Churchill forged ahead once more, the cane beating time, his eyes fixed upon an idea that was beginning to rotate in his mind and spin aside so many of the doubts that had been plaguing him. His concentration was total and he offered his friend no word of thanks or farewell. His colleague was left staring at his disappearing back.

"Remember like Mark Antony," Bracken called after him.

"Like my father," he thought he heard the old man reply.

When, later that day, Churchill entered the Chamber of the House of Commons from behind the Speaker's Chair, it was packed. For two days and nights of the previous week this same place had heard protestations and denunciations of Neville Chamberlain so terrible it had caused his Government to fall. Now, like a wicked child caught in the act, it protested its innocence.

As they spotted Churchill making his way towards his place, there were those on the opposite side of the House who cheered and waved their papers in the traditional form of greeting. It scratched at their socialist hearts to show goodwill towards a man such as this, but there were the common courtesies to be observed. Yet from his own party, which was more than two-thirds of the House, there came nothing but embarrassment. No one stood to cheer, few hailed him, most had suddenly found something of captivating interest amongst their papers or in the conversation of their neighbours.

Moments later, it was Neville Chamberlain's turn to enter and walk the same path, squeezing past the outstretched legs of others until he had found his place on the green leather bench beside Churchill. And as they saw him, his colleagues offered an outpouring of sympathy so vehement that they hoped it might wash away any mark of their guilt. He had last left this Chamber as a condemned man, and already he was a saint.

The House was like an excitable and over-bred greyhound; at every mention of Chamberlain they leapt up and barked their loyalty, while as Churchill spoke they crouched in anxiety, their tails between their legs, as he treated them to one of the most brutal and honest expositions ever offered by a Prime Minister at a time of great crisis. Many, it seemed, simply did not understand.

"Can you believe it?" Channon was still protesting some hours later as he stood on the lawn at the rear of the Travellers' Club. It was early evening; the weather was still glorious. "What on earth did all that mean? "I have nothing to offer but blood, toil, tears and sweat"," he growled in mock imitation.

"Not the sort of stuff to get the common man jumping for joy, that's for sure," Butler agreed across a glass of sherry.

"Extraordinary performance," Colville added.

"D'you think he was drunk?"

"Always so difficult to tell."

"Not something you drafted then, Jock?" Channon enquired. The stare he received in response was so stony he felt forced to leave in search of the bar steward.

"Truly, Jock, I fear for us all," Butler muttered. "Winston will say anything if the words take his fancy. We shall be swept away on a flood of oral incontinence."

The words still rang in his ears. He was a diplomat by trade and an intellectual by training, a man who took pleasure in toying with every side of an argument in the manner that a cat plays with a ball of wool. Yet Churchill was a man stripped of any trace of either sophistication or the values Butler held so dear in public life; his speech had been nothing short of vulgar.

"You ask, What is our policy?" Churchill had declared. "I will say: It is to wage war, by sea, land and air, with all our might and with all the strength that God can give us: to wage war against a monstrous tyranny, never surpassed in the dark, lamentable catalogue of human crime. That is our policy," he had told them. "You ask, What is our aim? I can answer in one word: Victory victory at all costs, victory in spite of all terror; victory, however long and hard the road may be; for without victory there is no survival .. ."

Butler was far from certain that he would want to survive in a world of crude simplicities of the sort embraced by Churchill. "I feel violated," he muttered, his lips wobbling.

His misery was interrupted as Channon returned in the company of the American ambassador, Joseph Kennedy. They were followed by a club steward carrying a tray with three small sherries and an enormous glass of bourbon.

"So, what are you Three Musketeers up to?" the American demanded.

If diplomacy was seen by many as a carefully orchestrated minuet, Joe Kennedy could always be relied upon to arrive wearing hobnail boots. He had worn them throughout a career that had carried him through the boardrooms of major banks and into the bedrooms of Hollywood starlets, and he had kept them ever more tightly laced as he had kicked his way into the smoke-filled back rooms of the US Democratic Party where he showed as little loyalty to his President as he did to his wife. He was a man with a roving eye and a slipping tie, and in the two years since his arrival at the Court of St. James's he had come to hate Winston Churchill.

"Not drinking to Winston and his war, I hope," Kennedy continued, waving his bourbon. "On the other hand, if all you've got is Winston, then I'm not surprised you drink." He smiled from behind round tortoiseshell glasses. "I'm sure I'm not telling tales out of school with you three when I tell you that even Halifax is complaining," he added. "Ridiculous working hours, sometimes up till two or three in the morning. This toil and sweat nonsense may sound fine, but what the hell can you achieve in the middle of the night with a man who's been drinking whisky since breakfast?"

"Joe, how did you get to be a diplomat?" Butler enquired provocatively.

"Funny thing, heard that Winston's been asking how the hell you got to be a Minister."

The response brought a flush to Butler's cheek. He expected to be sacked his views about Winston and his policies were far from a private indulgence but he still hadn't heard, and he found the uncertainty offensive.

"We live to play another day, Joe."

"Not if Winston gets going, you won't."

"You may well be right. But the game isn't over yet."

"So I hear. Fact is, one of the Whips told me that two-thirds of the party would have Neville back like a shot, given half an excuse."

"And most of them think that Winston is just the sort of person to provide it," Colville added.

"Not won over by his charms, then, Jock?" Kennedy enquired.

"May I put it this way, Mr Ambassador? I've never known a Prime Minister to come into office with so many people expecting him to fail even wanting him to fail."

"They don't want this war. It's what I've been saying all along!" Kennedy exclaimed. "Gentlemen, you go ahead with this fight and you're gonna get beat. Look what happened in Poland. Look what's happening in the Low Countries. Just heard from our embassy in Holland that the Luftwaffe is turning Rotterdam into the back side of hell. It's chaos over there."

"Do we have a choice but to go ahead, Joe? I fear Herr Hitler might insist," Butler prodded.

"What are you fighting for, Rab?" Kennedy barked back. "Hitler doesn't want to touch England, he doesn't want your empire. Leave him alone in Europe and by Christmas he'll be sipping tea and chomping through cream cakes with your King, all friends together. Why you ever got involved in this damned war I'll never understand."

It was a view that was also close to Butler's heart. "But we are involved, whether we like it or not. What can we do?"

"Play the Italian card. Hitler listens to Mussolini. Wrap up a couple of your Mediterranean islands as a gift for II Duce and he'll whisper whatever you want into Uncle Adolf's ear. Otherwise you're gonna end up at war with them both."

The three Englishmen stood mournfully.

Kennedy finished off his drink in one huge swallow. "Still, can't stand around here all evening. Got other diplomatic duties to perform, strengthening the Entente Cordiale with the assistance of a little French lady I know." He smiled and tried to straighten his tie. "Musketeers, it's been a pleasure." He waved and was gone.

"I know I'm a bit of a snob," Channon began, 'but I can't help feeling he's right."

"Of course he's right," Butler snapped irritably.

"And what do you think, Jock?"

"You see this suit I'm wearing?" It was offensively blue and exceptionally bright. "From the fifty-shilling department of Monty Burton's. Rather cheap and sensational, I'm afraid, but entirely suitable for this administration." He plucked a loose thread from his lapel. "I don't expect it will prove to be much of an investment."

The public library in Pimlico was open until seven that evening. It had a ground-in, sweet-and-sour aroma of beeswax and half-burnt coke, but it suited Ruth Mueller. She did not want to get back to her rented room before eight. By that time the family who lived below would have finished their dinner; it was bad enough having to go hungry without smelling the rest of the world at the trough.

Unlike her room, the Pimlico library was warm and quiet, but it was the books, of course, that had first drawn her here, particularly the Hitler books. Sadly, they had long since been banished from the shelves, and none of them had been very good, either Marxist tracts or hagiography. So she was left to wonder and to grapple with her half-formed impressions of the man. What about his childhood? What about his early days as a vagrant on the streets of Vienna? What about his early friendships with Jews, his devotion to his mother, his inability to form any other close relationship with a woman, his vegetarianism and his fondness for cream cakes? Who was he, why was he? He was physically brave, a man of courage. Like Churchill, so she had been told, and perhaps more so, for the young Hitler had received many wounds and war decorations. Yet he was childish. In 1918, Hitler had been invalided to a military hospital. When he heard that an armistice had been signed and that Germany had surrendered, he'd put his head beneath his pillow and sobbed. Bawled like a baby. And he'd been shouting like a petulant child ever since. Some said that was like Churchill, too .. .

She'd been trying to forget about Churchill but he had an irritating habit of wheedling his way back into her thoughts. She picked up a newspaper and tried to shake him away once more.

Hah! Civil servants, The Times announced, were to get a war bonus. The guilty men cosseting themselves at the very moment they were putting up the price of coal yet again. Outside the library the sun was shining brightly, but she couldn't prevent a shiver of apprehension running through her body. She had frozen in her garret through the last winter, and dreaded what the next one might bring. On the following page there were tips for 'cooking through the war without fear of rationing'. Dishes such as eggs with anchovy, bean and liver casserole, coconut rounds (a concoction based on bread soaked in evaporated milk) and macaroni and rabbit pie. She imagined every rabbit in the country dashing for cover.

Not that he would be eating anchovies or rabbit pie. At Chartwell it had been salmon, venison, pheasant and beef, washed down with the finest wines. The cost of a single bottle would have got her through an entire week, rent and all, yet he had the impertinence to lecture her about his sacrifices! What did he know about sacrifice?

Her mind wandered back to that summer of 1914, August,

the last time she could remember being happy. There was sun, and the sound of children's laughter. Then the summons had come. War. And the men had left with the horses, leaving behind the women with their young ones and their unspoken fears. So it had begun. The war was fought a million worlds away in France and Russia, but it had come rapping at their doors, gently at first. Strange shortages appeared. Suddenly there was no paper. She had begun to write letters not only across the page but up its length, too, in writing so minuscule her husband had required a glass to find his way through the kaleidoscope of scribbles. Worn-out shoes had to be repaired with card or resoled in wood; the children were asked to bring all their old bones and even cherry stones to school, to be turned into fertilizer. And they brought illness with them, everyone got sick, not least in their souls. Children were taught to hate, to kill even before they had become men, and were told by their teachers and priests that this was good and right. Hatred and intolerance were taught alongside geography and the Lord's Prayer, and was so much simpler to learn. Hatred had become a great patriotic game, honed by hunger, and it had been played so long that it would never be stopped, not while Germany, this Germany, survived.

Ruth Mueller was a German. But she was also an intellectual, a free thinker with a mind of her own, for what it was worth. And above all, she was a mother with memories of a starving child whose cries still woke her in the darkest moments of the night. She had fled, but she had not escaped, and whatever she did now, in the end some part of her soul would be shredded. She was a German in a foreign land, an intellectual reduced to scraping through on scraps of translation and proofreading, a mother with no child. But doing nothing would not be an option, not in this war.

Then she remembered that Winston Churchill had said please. It was a cry of vulnerability, like a child's plea for help. It had been a long time since anyone had said please.

She put aside the newspaper and went to the enquiries desk.

"May I help you?" The assistant was formal, unfriendly -she disapproved of Ruth Mueller's strange reading habits, and of Ruth Mueller even more.

"I would like some books. Something written by Mr. Churchill, please. Perhaps something he has written about his father?"

They had expressed their collective concerns and reservations about the new Prime Minister, after which, politics being politics, they had trooped through the Division Lobby to give him a unanimous vote of confidence. Afterwards it had taken Churchill some while to leave the Chamber for, politicians being politicians, many had paused to congratulate him but not for too long. Even Chips Channon had joined the throng.