Trust: Betrayed (38 page)

“She doesn’t know where she is,” Lachlann pointed out. “She keeps clutching her arm. She must have wounded it too.” He gently tried to pry her fingers, but she shook her head, moaning, the movement making her dizzy.

“How did she fall?” Alice asked. “Did she slip?”

“I don’t know. I was watching the deer. When it ran away and I looked at her, she was falling to the ground and rolling down the hill. I didn’t have time to catch her. She must have fainted.”

Lachlann glanced at Alistair, concern marring his features. “We have to take her to a hospital.”

“No.” There was deep concern in Alistair’s eyes. His voice was firm, though. “Only if it’s strictly necessary. She hates hospitals. Leonard, call Tavish Uilleam. Inform him we’re coming back and we need medical help. I’ll ride with her on my lap.”

From far away, Sophia could hear voices and feel her body being handled and although she tried, she couldn’t reach them.

She was floating in a dark space where flaming pain coursed through her body and a freezing ache prickled her heart.

8.29 p.m.

Alistair strode into his bedroom, with an unconscious Sophia in his arms, Tavish hovering over his shoulder.

“Let me help,” Alice volunteered.

“Okay. Don’t lay her down yet. Alice, take off her shirt, please. I need to suture her wounds as quickly as possible.”

What?
“There’s no need to take off her shirt, Alice,” Alistair scolded at his sister. “You can cut around the wound.”

Tavish grunted. “Alistair Connor, her clothes are wet and dirty. I need her clean to treat her wounds. If you don’t cooperate, you’ll have to leave.”

Alistair’s green gaze blazed flames at his brother. “I’m not going anywhere!”

Their stares clashed.

“Stop interfering. She’s in pain and you’re being an ass.” Tavish sighed. “Alistair Connor. I’m a doctor. I do not lust over unconscious, sick women however beautiful or hot they may be. And, fuck, she’s your girlfriend.”

Tavish Uilleam is right. You’re being an idiot, Alistair Connor.
Alistair slowly nodded, “I’m sorry.”

Tavish barely acknowledged the apology, looking away from Sophia as Alice took her shirt off. “Does she have any allergies?”

“I don’t know!” Alistair nearly shouted, exasperated with his impotency.

“You’re not helping.” Tavish stared at his brother, irritated too.

Alistair raked a hand in his hair. “I don’t know. This is her scarred arm, though.”

Tavish turned and saw the white jagged scars. “Fucking hell! That must have hurt.” He approached the still sleeping Sophia, putting on gloves. “I called a friend of mine who is a psychiatrist. She has a country house near here, about one and a half hour away.” He prepared the medical supplies he would need beside him on the bedside table. “I’m worried. She shouldn’t sleep after a head injury like this. Have you seen a suture before, Alistair Connor?” Tavish studied him, seriously. “Can you stomach it?”

“I’m not leaving her,” he affirmed. He frowned as he saw what Tavish had in his first aid kit. “Morphine?! Why do you have morphine, Tavish Uilleam?”

“Are you going to question each and every step?” He didn’t raise his eyes from what he was doing. He quickly assessed Sophia and looked up at Alistair. “We have to take her to a hospital.”

“No. The wounds on her head and shoulder are minor. You can handle it. If she doesn’t regain cons-”

“Alistair Connor, she’s not a child, neither are you. She fainted, hit her head and is sleeping.”

Tavish crossed his brawny arms and fixed Alistair with a stern stare. “Even if she regains consciousness
,
I’m taking her to get an X-ray and MRI tomorrow morning. And that’s final.”

Alistair Connor, he is the doctor here.
“All right, all right.”

Tavish uncrossed his arms and started to work.

The door opened after a soft knock and Gabriela entered the room.

Her eyes widened when she entered Alistair’s room. “Mama,” she cried, running to Sophia’s side. “Mama, wake up.”

Alice stepped in front of her and picking her up in her arms, hugged her, drawing the little girl’s face to her chest. “Don’t worry, dear. She just fell and is resting now.” She looked over Gabriela’s white blonde hair into Alistair’s eyes.

“Alistair.” Gabriela turned in Alice’s arms and said in whisper, “Kiss her.”

“I beg your pardon?” Alistair was flabbergasted at the suggestion.

“Kiss her, like in Sleeping Beauty.”

“Go on, kiss her. It can’t hurt,” Tavish coached, smiling.

“Please, Alistair. A kiss will break the spell,” Gabriela beamed, twinkles in her eyes.

Sophia felt a strangely familiar scent, vanilla mixed with oak and a warm masculine minted breath bathed her lips. A mouth pressed on hers and silky hair fell over her, tickling her face. Her fingers wandered up to touch it.
Men shouldn’t have hair like that, only girls-

She broke the kiss and opened her eyes. “Alistair! Oh, God! Alistair Connor.”

Sophia pulled him down, burying her face in the hollow of his neck, as her eyes filled with tears, hugging his neck tightly.

He returned the embrace. “Gabriela is here,” he murmured for her ears only.

Instantly Sophia regained her composure, rubbing her tear stricken face on his sweater and shifting to look at her daughter.

Gabriela came closer.

“Oh, my love,” Sophia whispered, struggling to keep her emotions under control.

“You see, Mama, he broke the spell. He is your Prince Charming,” said the little girl, sitting down on the edge of the bed and bending down to kiss her mother.

She smiled at the little girl. “Yes, he is.”

“I knew it,” she beamed at the couple.

“Time to sleep, little angel,” Alice said, “I betAriadne is waiting for you.”

Sophia kissed the little girl again and plastered a smile on her face until Gabriela was out of the room with Alice, who kept looking back at her.

When the door closed behind them, Alistair gushed out, “Christ, Sophia, you scared us all.”

“What happened?” Tavish brought a chair close to the bed.

She looked at them. “The deer,” she bit her lip, “his eyes. When I looked into his eyes...” She shook her head and put a hand on her temple, feeling the bandage over the stitches.

“You hit your head, Beauty. Don’t make sharp movements.” Alistair kissed her forehead.

“I’m giving Frankenstein a run for his money.” Sophia attempted a joke, but broke down sobbing. “I remembered.”

She began to tremble.

At first, tiny quakes shuddered her body, but then she started to shake in earnest and Alistair’s chest tightened. He hugged her.

“They wanted me, not Gabriel. Me! I was too afraid to obey their orders. Gabriel gave himself up in my place.” Her voice came out broken by her crying, her lean body shaking with heartbroken sobs.
What have I done? I killed him. If not for me, he would still be alive.

“Hush, Beauty. Do you think Gabriel would have let them take you?” He buried his face in her hair as the despair in her voice sliced his heart. “Shhh. Don’t cry.”

“I killed him, Alistair. I don’t deserve to be alive.”

Tavish gasped shocked, “Sophia, you don’t know what you are saying.”

“You did not kill him. It was a tragic accident. A poorly handled kidnapping,” Alistair tried to soothe her.

“No,” she sobbed. “It was a series of events caused by my actions. I’m to blame. I didn’t surrender, I fought back. I let him go in my place, I let myself be drugged and I let his father control the negotiations. My fault. My fault.” Sophia was almost hysterical.

Alistair looked at Tavish, “Give her something.”

“No. I don’t want anything. It’s not fair on him. Not fair,” she said incoherently. “What I did... Wrong, so wrong.” Sophia’s adrenaline spiked. She fought Alistair’s embrace and got up from the other side of the bed. She swayed as the room spun around her.

Tavish jumped from the chair to steady her, but she shoved his hands away and walked to the bathroom.

“Fuck.” Immediately, Alistair rose from the bed, ordering, “Tavish Uilleam. Give her something. Something strong.”

Tavish looked at his brother and raked his fingers in his hair. “I can give her a Valium. But she already has low blood pressure. Barbiturates or benzodiazepines-”

“Speak English,” Alistair interrupted. “I don’t understand what you’re talking about.”

“Stronger sedatives can increase the risk of the more serious side effects of a low blood pressure. What she needs is time. Time to understand and let it all settle.” He shook his head as he walked to the door. “You can’t just magically solve problems with medicine. Sometimes you just have to trust time, patience and a lot of understanding to do the trick.”

Alistair sighed and followed Sophia into the bathroom.

“He was my husband!” Sophia never felt so much pain. For her, she had been the real cause of Gabriel’s death and it was more than she could bear. “You don’t get it!”

“There’s nothing you can do, Sophia. It wasn’t your fault,” Alistair said.

“It was. Maybe I didn’t pull the trigger, but what I did...” Sophia turned her head to the wall as if trying to bury herself in it. “I turned the gun onto him.” Her loss and her secret weighed on her making her pain and regret even more unbearable. She broke down, wailing.

Alistair had seen her cry before, but it had been nothing like this.

Sophia wasn’t rational. Any coherence had disappeared into an otherworldly oblivion of pain, raw and primal. He carefully pulled her into his arms and held her while she cried.

Sophia bit her fist, trying to stifle the hurtful sobs, but nothing could muffle the painful sounds that left her body.

“Sophia,” Alistair sighed. He looked away for a moment, his throat convulsing. When his eyes came back to meet hers, Sophia was shocked by the amount of tormented ache that swam inside his green eyes. It was as if his eyes mirrored all the hurt she was feeling inside. “My love. Please don’t cry.”

And it wasn’t only in his eyes. Alistair’s voice was leaden with pain, too.

“I know this is hard. Believe me when I say I understand. One day, you’re going to realize that it wasn’t your fault. Remember the facts. Even if you hadn’t reacted, even if you hadn’t been shot, do you think Gabriel would have let them take you? Do you think the man who loved you that much wouldn’t do everything in his power to convince them to take him instead? You couldn’t have prevented that.”

Alistair just held her, feeling as if he were going to break too. His hands ran over her back until she let out a last shuddering breath.

“Alistair Connor.” She managed to grimace. “I hate it when you are so reasonable.”

“Do you really?” He looked at her, content that she had stop crying. “I would have done the same thing, if I’d been in Gabriel’s place. I-”

A knock on the door interrupted Alistair. “Come in,” he ordered and looked over his shoulder to see his brother accompanied by a short, plump, blonde woman casually dressed.

“Sophia, this is my friend, Doctor Evelyne Richardson. She’s a psychiatrist. I explained to her what happened. I think it would be advisable if you talk to her a bit. Would you?”

Sophia instantly took a liking to the gentle woman, “Yes.”

As they moved into the bedroom, Evelyne took a seat in one of the armchairs by the enormous four poster bed. “Hmm. This is what I call dramatic surroundings. Good for a seducing vampire.”

Sophia’s little chuckle tinkled in the room mingling with Tavish’s low laughter.

Such imagination these women have.
Alistair rolled his eyes heavenward as they walked out to wait in the adjoining sitting room.

10.34 p.m.

Evelyne rose from the armchair and looked at Alistair, “Please, don’t forget to give her the anti-inflammatory.”

“Be careful tomorrow in the bath. Her stitches can’t get wet. You can wake me up if she needs anything. And, lass,” Tavish turned to Sophia and kissed her on the forehead, “I want you to rest. Have a lie in till lunchtime. In the afternoon I’ll take you to get your X-ray and MRI.”

Sophia’s lips curled up at the other domineering brother and she gave him a military salute, “Yes, sir.”

Tavish smiled at her and accompanied Evelyne out of the room.

Alistair fluffed the pillow that supported her arm and adjusted another to make her more comfortable.

“Feeling better?” he asked as he tucked a lock of hair behind her ear.

“Yes,” Sophia gave him half a smile that lifted his heart.

“Good. I’ll be right back,
mo chridhe
. Don’t move from here.” Alistair kissed the top of her head and left his bedroom, closing the door softly behind him.

Sophia sighed and looked at the black and gold canopy. She was already feeling relieved. Lighter. She didn’t know if it were the drugs or the talk she’d had with Evelyne. Tavish’s friend was an accomplished psychoanalyst and had greatly eased Sophia’s burden.

“You, Tavish, of all people, should understand how this is not an easy task,” Evelyne frowned at Tavish.

Tavish hung his head, squeezing his eyes in pain, “I know, Evelyne. But unless she let it go, she won’t be able to rebuild her life. You know this better than I do.”

The doctor sighed and put a hand on Tavish’s shoulder. “I do, Tavish, believe me. But I also know how much it hurts and how long it takes to overcome something like what she has been through.”

Evelyne turned to look at Alistair as he came out of the room. “I strongly advise that she calls her therapist as soon as she can.”

“I’ll make sure she does,” he agreed.

“This is absolutely amazing, Sophia. Look,” Alistair’s green eyes were fixed on the rough sea darkened by the thunderous weather. The breaking waves were crashing on the rocks below the road with such force that the water splashed up and soaked the asphalt.