Unbearable (Undescribable) (45 page)

“Baby, are you okay?” He looks like he’s about to
get sick at any second.

“I’m fine.” He gives a grin but it’s shaky.

“Are you feeling okay? Do you need to sit down?” I
put my hand on his arm to steady him. He looks like he’s about to fall over.

He nods his head, and then changes his mind and
shakes it really fast. “No. I’ll be fine.”

He reaches down and takes both of my hands in his.

“Angel, I know that this has been a hard year for
you. I’m sorry for everything you’ve had to endure, but I’m glad I was by your
side along the way.”

“Me too,” I say happily

“Angel.” He takes a deep breath. “You saved me. I
never knew I was lost, but from the moment I heard your sweet voice over the
phone, I just knew you were special. You were meant for me. My life before you
was meaningless. Life since I met you….” He sighs. “My life with you has
meaning and promise. Meanings I want us to learn together, and promises I want
to keep. Angel, you are my meaning to live and I promise to fight for us, no
matter how hard our life gets. Cause life without you….” He closes his eyes as
if in pain. “It would be unbearable.” He opens his eyes. “I’m in love with you,
Angel.”

He very slowly goes down on one knee and produces a
box out of his pocket. Before I can put two and two together, he opens it, but I
can’t pull my eyes away from his to look at the box.

“I want to spend the rest of my life with you,
because without you, nothing feels important. I love you more than I ever knew
was possible. I want you to be my wife. Marry me, Angel?”

My heart is pounding in my chest and my vision is
getting blurry. I know this man loves me and I know I love him enough to give
my life for him. And he is right. He is the most important person in my life.

“Yes. I’ll marry you,” I practically scream with
joy.

He slips the ring on my finger and then stands,
embracing me. He picks me up, spinning me around as we laugh, and I can hear
the girls crying and the guys cheering. He sets me down, grabs my face, and
gives me a hard kiss. I pull away and finally get a chance to look at the ring.
I gasp.

“Slade, it is beautiful.”
And huge
. The
diamond alone must be three carats.

“I want to tell you about it.” He picks up my hand,
running his thumb over it.

“The night your mom and I spoke, she gave me her
and your dad’s wedding bands.” What? That’s why I couldn’t find them? He had
them the entire time?

“I wanted you to have something from them but at
the same time something special just for you. So, I came up with a design and
Josh took care of the rest. I had your mother’s band melted down.”

I go to speak but he holds up a finger. “Let me
explain why I did that.”

I nod, feeling somewhat conflicted.

“Your mom’s band was a small silver band with
sixteen diamonds in it. I had it melted down and the diamonds removed. Those
are the diamonds here.” He points to the diamonds that circle the big square
pink diamond that sits in the middle. “I wanted to give you a platinum band to
go with your necklace and watch. I chose the main diamond as a baby pink one
because that’s your favorite color. And I did the princess cut….” He takes a
deep breath as his baby blues eyes look up into mine. “Because your mom said that
was what your dad always called you; his princess.”

I feel a tear run down my cheek.

“I wanted to make you something special because you
are special to me, Angel. I also wanted you to always have a piece of me, your mother,
and your father with you. No matter where you are or what you’re doing, they
will always be with you, Angel. Right here.” He runs his thumb over the ring
again.

I continue to cry at how much thought he put into
this engagement ring.

“I love it. It’s beautiful,” I whisper.

“I have one more question for you?” he asks
timidly.

“Yes?”

“I didn’t do anything to your father’s ring. I want
to wear it for my wedding band. Would you mind?” Can my heart melt to nothing?
I guess it can because it just did.

“No.” I shake my head. “No, I love that idea. And I
know he would too.”

He kisses me as everyone in the room counts down to
the New Year.

“Happy New Year, Angel,” he says as he pulls away.

“Happy New Year, baby.” I wrap my arms around his
neck while everyone is shouting, hugging, and popping champagne bottles open. I
can’t help but stare into those beautiful blue eyes as a brilliant smile plays
on his face. He said God had sent me to him, that I am his Angel. He is wrong,
once again. God sent him to me, to save me. I was the one that needed to be
saved. I would be lost without his love.

“I love you,” I whisper against his lips.

“I love you, my precious Angel.” He leans down to
kiss me again, making me weak in the knees.

I can’t wait to see what next year brings us. One
thing I know, no matter what it is, we will get through it together.

EPILOGUE

I walk out of our hotel
bathroom, running my hand through my wet hair, when I hear Angel’s phone
ringing. I answer it, wondering who in the hell would be calling at this time
of the night.

“Hello?”

A man laughs on the other end of the line. “Didn’t
take long to replace me, huh?”

I stand there looking over Angel’s sleeping form in
our hotel bed as the guy laughs again.

Jax!

I fist my hand down at my side and turn my back to
Angel, knowing exactly who the fucker is. “What the fuck are you doing calling
Angel?” I demand.

There’s silence for a few seconds before he speaks.
“Cute,” he says dryly.

I grab the key and walk out of the hotel room when
I hear her start to stir.

“Listen here, you piece of shit, I will fuck you up
if you come near her.”

“Oh, like you did last time?” I finally realize
there is a slur in his voice.

Great! He’s fucking drunk.

“That was a cheap shot and you know it,” he protests
angrily.

“What are you talking about?” I snap.

“You think because you have tattoos that you’re
some big bad guy who can fuck me up. Well, that won’t happen next time.” He
hangs up and I pull Angel’s phone away from my ear and just stare at it. I
never touched Jax, but trust me, if a fight is what he wants, a fight is what
he’ll get.

I start to walk back to our room when I see Tate
leaning up against the hallway.

“Problems?” he asks casually.

“Not yet.” If Jax comes anywhere near her, though,
there will be a shit storm.

I notice that Tate makes no attempt to move away
from the wall. “Why did you insist on coming on this trip?” I’m tired of
wondering.

He smirks. “Still think I’m trying to take your
girl from you, Slade?”

“I
know
you love her.”

He pushes off the wall and comes toward me. “I do
love her.” He nods his head.“And before you start swinging, let me explain
something to you.”

I place my hands behind my back, for some reason I
want to hear what he has to say.

“I’m not going to take her from you, but if Jax
shows up, you can have him after I’m done.”

I frown. “Why do you care about Jax?”

“I have some unfinished business with him.”

You think because you have all those tattoos
you’re a bad ass.

“You were the one he thought he was talking to?”

He nods. “I got a hold of him. Then the little shit
ran off like a coward before I got to finish.”

I run a hand through my hair, confused. “I don’t
understand.”

He turns and makes his way towards his room and it
just pisses me off.

I walk up to him and shove him against the wall.
“Tell me why you’re here. What do you want with Angel?” I growl.

“You don’t want to know,” he says, matching my
tone.

“Tate,” I warn, fisting my hands down at my sides.
I’m trying my hardest not to hit him.

“I can’t lose her,” Tate says. “You should know
what that kind of fear is like. Why can’t you drop it?”

“What do you mean
lose
her? She’s not
yours,” I snap.

He leans his head back against the wall and sighs.
“I watched her push you away when you first met her.” He smiles as if fond of
that thought. “She wanted you, but she fought it.” He lifts his head and looks
at me, mouth now in a hard line. “Every time you tell her something she doesn’t
want to hear, she runs. That’s how Sam has always been. She has always felt
better on her own. Not having to trust someone else, who she knows is going to
eventually hurt her. I have spent too many years without her. I won’t let her
know my secret just so she can run from me.”

“I’m not telling you to tell her. I’m telling you
to tell
me
before I fucking go crazy.”

He releases a long sigh. “I can understand why
Marie kept some things secret,” he says quietly as if talking to himself. I
continue to stand there and let him talk, although I have no idea what Marie
has to do with this. “I have always kept things about my past a secret from a
very young age. There are just some things other people don’t need to know.”

He looks up at me for a few seconds.

He rubs the back of his neck and releases another
long sigh. “But I don’t want you to worry about my intentions anymore.” He stares
down at the floor. “I’m Sam’s half-brother.”

I take a step back from him. “What? That can’t.
No.” I shake my head.

“Jack was my father,” he admits quietly as if that
pained him to say.

“How is that possible?”

“You don’t need to know the details. Just know I wouldn’t
lie about that.”

I turn and start to pace back and forth in the
hotel hallway. “Why would you keep that a secret from her?”

“How would I have told her that? ‘Hey, Sam, I’ve
been taking care of your sick mother while spying on you. And oh yeah, I’m your
brother.’” He shakes his head when I look up at him. “I weighed my options. She
needed to know how her mother felt about her. I didn’t want any other thoughts
in her mind except that.”

“Yeah, but…but she accepted her mother’s death
after you explained everything to her. Why not tell her last month, or even
today for fuck’s sake?”

“I didn’t want to ruin the proposal,” he says
quietly. “And I don’t want her to push me away,” he responds sadly. “We both
know how she runs from things she doesn’t understand.”

I nod my head. “She does that.” I sigh. “How long
are you planning to keep this a secret from her?” I feel somewhat lost, I
should have never asked. He should have never mentioned it.

Fuck!

“I guess I should tell her soon since you two are
going to get married.” He smiles.“Now do you understand why I wanted to come? I
couldn’t make it to Thanksgiving, but when I found out I had another chance to
witness it, I had to be here.”

I turn around and start to pace again. “I can’t
fucking believe this!”

“How do you think I felt when I found out?” he says,
getting my attention.

I pause and look up to him. “How old were you when
you found out?”

He shakes his head. “That doesn’t matter.”

I close my eyes, releasing a sigh. I’m not going to
push him. I couldn’t imaginewhat he has gone through or what him and Angel are
about to go through when she finds out this news.

I start to walk to our room. I suddenly need to
hold Angel. My hand pauses on the doorknob. Shit! I’m going to be in so much
deep shit when this secret comes out.

“Hey, Slade.”

I look down the hall to Tate placing the key card
in his door before he looks up at me. “Don’t worry. This conversation never
happened,” he assures me, and then walks into his room.

That statement does not make me feel any better.

I feel Angel’s phone in the pocket of my sweatpants
and I’m reminded of why I’m out in the hall in the first place. I go through the
phone and delete the last call from her incoming log. Tomorrow I need to call
and have that number blocked as well.

I wanted to start this year out clean and fresh.
It’s not even four hours into the New Year and I have two secrets to keep which
could both affect our relationship.

Walking into our bedroom, I look over at her
sleeping and release a sigh. I will do anything to protect her, but I seem to
be the one that hurts her the most. And that has me thinking that this year may
not go as well as I had hoped.

The End

Make sure to keep an eye of for the third and
final
book in the UNDESCRIBABLE series: UNCONTROLLABLE

Angel had agreed to be my wife. I was finally given something
so special I didn’t want to let it go. I honestly thought the only two
obstacles that we had left to face were Jax trying to come back into her life
and the fact that Tate is her brother.

Fuck, was I wrong. One by one things started to happen and I
did everything I could to protect what’s mine. There was
nothing
I
wouldn’t do for her. I could have never imagined that our lives were going to
get so…UNCONTROLLABLE.

Loyalty will be tested

Love will be tainted

Boundaries will be crossed

Hearts will be shattered

Lies will be told

Secrets will be revealed.

Slade & Samantha’s story comes to an end. Will their love
get them through what they never saw coming?